Merry Christmas

I wish all readers of my blog a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.



MERRY CHRISTMAS to all



&



A Happy New Year

Hot N' Cold

Hey girl, why do you treat me like this?



Sometimes you treat me nicely, but sometimes it's just like so cold you know, just like a freezing Ice cube in the corner of the refrigerator.



Sometimes you can be with me just like a hot melted chocolate.



I want to know how you feel, I want to lend you a helping hand, I just want to be part of you.



Knowing this will not happen so fast, but at least, I want to try my best to get involved with you.



Girl,



Can you give me a chance to let me prove that I'm the guy worth waiting?

Soon to be back

Latest updates:


New Vision badminton tournament coming up, from 2nd january to 3rd january 2010.


Should i join or not?

Just came back from Melaka, what a great experience



Not provided that i added 2kg to myself XD

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Liking someone is really suffering...



Can be torturing....



Can also be painful...




Officially Missing you.

Why do you have to lie to me?



Was it so good to tell lies?

Doctor, can you tell me when will my wrist completely recover?



You told me only 2 weeks more than i can smash with full force, but 2 weeks already, i still can't use full force.



I want to resume training, next year i have to do extraordinary improvements already.



Please Doctor, hope you give me a good answer

Don't forget

Don't forget about me, Forget about me when I really can't face you anymore.

Great Day

Thanks for the Great time u spent with me, Chloe




Hope we can meet up again sometime =)

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Been playing Badminton lately, followed doctor's advice and precautions, yet everytime after game there is a short moment of pain which last for few hours.



I really cant afford to have that pain, already used so much money on my medical fees.



C'mon wrist, just recover completely and don't create any pain anymore.

Holiday

Time flies quickly and yet i still got so many things undone:

1) go out with friends and girls XD


2) Resume training, recover and push myself further


3) Work? I need cash


But this semester's holiday is really short...oh my...

I know many of you out there talking about me, saying that "why that zhi wei train so long already but yet he never win any tournament before?"



I know that, in fact i won't blame you all, because that is the fact, and i have to admit training isn't easy either, Playing in a tournament is also a different story from training.



For those who encourage me and support me all these while, i appreciate and really want to Thank you all here, for those who said i never win any tournament before, it's ok, since i really didn't win any...



But i still got 2 more years left, and 2 year is to achieve the level i want to achieve, and December will be recovery session for my wrist, to get back my consistency. January will be the start of a new year and i shall give myself a try.



I will push myself further, regardless how tired and painful it will be.

Just a few days not talking to each other and things changed so much.



I thought of you everyday, but you are just having fun out there.



I won't blame or mad at you for anything, and it's okay to have fun out there.



But i just want to say this,



"I really miss you a lot"

4th day: All over

Finally, the battle is over, freedom has been achieved.



A sigh of Relief...



Wish you were here, miss you...

3rd day over, final day is tomorrow

The final day is about to arrive tomorrow, but today's test was filled with pressure and a blind battle with Construction Law.



I went in calmly, but the moment i opened the question paper...oh my...freaks me out..



Tried my best to do what i know, that's all i can do.



The other 2 question? Whacked it..



Tomorrow is the last paper, just go all out, and then there goes HAPPY HOUR!

3rd day over, final day is tomorrow

2nd Day over

The 2nd day of Final exam has passed. Today's paper was Building Construction 1, a slightly challenging paper, but was able to handle it well. At first i saw the questions, they are very straightforward, but i forgotten some of the answers....Yeah...forgotten...



Anyways, not to say much, this paper was way better than the IQS paper yesterday. Yesterday was a nightmare. I even managed to walk out of the exam hall 3o minutes before the given time. Some of the questions i'm quite uncertain about it.



Tomorrow will be a tough battle against Construction Law, guess i have to put 120% on the notes once more and do the paper carefully. 120% men! ALL OUT!!!!



After Construction Law, things will be smooth, just like one way traffic =)




Exams Timetable:

Monday: IQS

Tuesday: Building Construction 1

Wednesday: Construction Law

Thursday: Building Service 1

1st Day over

The first day of exam is finally over, but it was a bad headstart for me. My IQS was a nightmare for me.



It all started well when i was doing my Taking-Off list for Strip Foundation, but halfway doing i realised i left out some stuff and for IQS subject, you are not allowed to use blanko or whatsoever item to erase it, so i got no choice but to rewrite it again.



After that, in the Dimension Sheet section, i forgotten to insert some stuff into it and couldn't cancel it because there was too much i left out, and there goes another re-writing session and then i wasted so much time there.



When i arrived at the Pad Foundation section, i was only left with 1 hour minutes time. Looked through the question and then start doing it. When i was doing it, suddenly i wrote something wrong again, so i made a small crossout and continued my paper. Things got worse and i crossed out a lot. Decided to re-do the paper again and things got worse. After rewriting and i checked back, there's only 40 minutes left. I tried to speed up my work, but the maximum i could go is half of the Pad Foundation.



When i was about to continue, the invigilator announced Time is Up. I had to put down the pen with the unsatisfied heart of mine and just couldn't say a word the moment the examiner collected the answer papers. Seeing others able to accomplish their paper, I sat down at the chair realising that i can't do much.



I wanted to cry because i was so unsatisfied with my paper which i normally can do better than this. The feeling just make me feel that i'm such a useless guy.



Now that IQS has fallen badly, there are 3 subjects left, which are Building Construction 1, Construction Law and Building Services 1.



I cannot afford to fail my IQS. I cannot afford to fail...I CAN'T....



Here are the total marks for the paper IQS:

Strip Foundation - 30 marks

Pad Foundation - 50 marks


Calculate my scenario and you will know how bad is my situation.





Exams:

Monday: IQS

Tuesday: Building Construction 1

Wednesday: Construction Law

Thursday: Building Services 1





"I must not look back anymore, look forward and do the rest properly"

1 day left

Today is the final day of preparation.


Here is the exam schedule of mine:


Mon: IQS (3 hour) - 9:30 a.m.

Tues: Building Construction 1 (2 hours) - 9:30 a.m.

Wed: Construction Law (2 hours) - 2:30 p.m.

Thurs: Building Services 1 (2 hours) - 9:30 a.m.



4 days straight. Shall PUSH THE LIMIT !

Construction Law

The Law is killing me....



Ahhhhh....



So many things to read on it, Crazy Law...



Swear to destroy it once everything is over!

Is this how it will be?

Teddy Chocolate Biscuits

Those biscuits are hell men...



Just doesn't taste good at all, don't buy that =(



You'll regret...

Which should i buy?

Which Should i Buy?


The China Badminton National Team Yellow in Beijing Olympic






OR



Yonex Badminton Wear(shirt + Short) Black 12027





Please Vote at the bottom right! TQ

Which should i buy?
	Beijing Olympic Set
	YONEX Badminton Wear ( shirt + short ) Black 12027
= see results =

It seems like it's getting better, should have gone for consultation in the first place...



Anyways, hoping to get back on court soon!



Time to get back what i lost!



"Don't be sad alright? Things will be better tomorrow"

A visit to the Sport Doctor

Had an appointment with the sports doctor today. Very nice doctor, explained my injuries in detail and did some treatment. Found the source and gave me some physio to do.




Here are some advices he gave me:


"If you want to play badminton or resume training, No problem....provided that you don't smash or lob"



"When you play tournament, you have to strap the athletic tape on your wrist"



"Follow the workout i give you and see you back on Friday"



This is my last alternative. Hope it works!

Argument

Is there anything so nice to argue?



Why want to argue over such small matter?



Oh mum, come on...

To my beloved one

Hey dear,


there is no need to worry,


things will always go fine,


have faith in yourself and things will go well.


No matter what happens to you,


I will always give you support,


And always believe in you =)

Guardian

I wish i can stay up looking at you, guarding you, seeing you from far...

I can only sit at the corner looking, unable to do anything.

To trust him?

To give up?

To Continue?

Stranded in the middle of nowhere, left me alone standing there confused.

I'm starting to get tired of it already.

Trust

I just lose trust to the people around me.

Sitting by side of my window,



Looking out at my window,



I can see the round full moon filled together with the sparkling stars in the dark sky,



Wondering myself,



A feeling of missing you in my mind,



Your name is already carved into my heart,



On one lonely Saturday night,



Wishing that you could be here with me,



Together We can see the moon and the stars shining high up in the sky,



I want to tell you this,



I've already fall for you.

Was a great workout yesterday.



Did jogging, weights (leg exercise) and agility.



Trying to come back.



And i saw you there too =)

What is happening lately?



When i go, you're not there, but when i leave, you come.



Tell me what are you thinking. Let me read your mind.

What a workout today. Most of them done with the leg exercises. Really good for getting back my fitness and improving my fitness. Working hard on it now.



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What a horrifying experience for me when i accidentally 'kissed' the bumper of the car in front of me on the highway. The guy came down scolding me "WTF" and he checked the bumper.



Fortunately there wasn't any dent or scratch. Phew....was so scary men...between the verge of life and death.

Building

Resumed jogging 2 days back and also trying to get back the fitness i had previously and also to improve it.



Really love going to the gym now even with the wrist injury.



The least is at least i can see her.



Always keep the smile on your face =)

Happy Birthday Mum !!!

Hope you will enjoy !!




=D

It's time to get up and start pushing myself again.

Competitors

During this injury period, i could only see people play badminton. Couldn't do anything much either.



Seeing my competitors going the extra mile, i am still at the same level, or maybe falling.



The Ups and Downs. Haihz

Wasted

There was such a huge opportunity for me to prove my potential.



The Taylors Sports Carnival for Badminton 2009 was held today. If my wrist wasn't injured, guess i would be representing my department, but sadly...things didn't wanted to go in the way i want.



Another opportuniy wasted.

Back at Zero

Seems like my wrist isn't showing any much improvement, there's still pain even after game. Seems like i gotta need to rest again to let it recover completely.



Back at Zero...

Bad comeback

Went for badminton game today. When i was there, i prepared and myself and got myself warmed up.



During the stroking session, all my shots were so wrong, all the shuttle only reach half court, the strokes aren't consistent and many shots hitting the frame. I expected that this scenario would happen on me.



During Doubles, i wasn't even able to smash properly or even drop. My shots were not good and i couldn't anticipate the shot. My smashes mainly went into the net, and out of 10 shots, only 2 shots managed to pass the net.



My footwork was still ok(thanks to physical work out during the normal days), but fear most is the wrist. My wrist just signalled me some pain. When i smashed, i can feel the pain within it.



After the game session, i sat on the bench and looked down at the floor. I kept thinking of my performance today and about my wrist.



Did i put up too high expectation on myself? or the pain of the wrist affected me? What was i thinking during the match?



Just a bad recovery and comeback. Please suggest some ways to resist the pain

Been doing fine these few days, working back on my physical fitness.



The burning desire and eagerness of mine to get back to court drives me to work harder.



When i get back to court, it's time to prepare for upcoming tournaments end of the year !

Truth

Did she found out the truth herself?



Confused.

Comeback

Did some physical exercise today after resuming from wrist injury...



Felt unfit when doing footwork, and also when doing pushup, some pain in my wrist...



What a COMEBACK...

Is it possible to change one's heart?

Walking pass the corridors of Suriamas, i looked into the kitchen of yours but seeing it empty.



I missed the time we had cooking over your place.



Just unforgettable.

Now i know why my sis says i'm not grown up, it's because i'm going out with people that are not grown up...



Just so wrong, imagine seeing two girls argueing, one at the age of 19 and the other one at the age of 14, and seeing them throwing stuff towards each other and making the 14 year old cried.



I don't think that's how a 19-year-old should ACT....



Just need to grow up...


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After Raya break, heard from College that there's tournament coming up, so psyched up and this is driving myself to even recover faster.



Ready to get back to Court once i recover =)

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Nothing much to do during the holidays.



Just HANDFULL of assignments and staying at home to recover my wrist.



Maybe some hang-outs...



Haha

C'mon

C'mon, you still got loads of things waiting to do, you have to get better quick ~!



- Zhi Wei -

Selamat Hari Raya

To all bloggers, readers and players....



Selamat Hari Raya.



Drive safely.



=D



Will resume training after Raya holiday, hope my wrist gets better.

Bad sign

I thought the wrist was about to recover, but it was all just dreams...



The pain came back and once again i won't be able to go to training tomorrow morning...



*sobs*



Wonder when only my wrist will recover...



Wants to get back in action

injury

I'm now suffering Wrist Injury...



Only can do nothing much, mostly all the leg exercise to strengthen the legs...



Wish it will recover soon

Singles

Had singles in training today. Played against Buddy Soon Ong. Lost to him 15-21, 15-21.

Was suffering wrist pain. Didn't really able to do much, but learn a good lesson and managed to video it down =)

Will do better next time.

It's getting tiring and tougher...



The intensity has been increased...



A major change in my Daily Physical Routine...



More drills to be done...



A total change in everything, just to get one step better...



Be different from others..

Gossip

People just love to gossip, don't they?



Why does this always happen around?



I think it's a bad habit in every human being....

Assignment

These assignments are killing me...



Just keeping me busy and couldn't spend time working on my footwork and physical...



This week is gonna make me feel lazy...



Gotta do something somehow...

Solution?

I was just playing against the same opponent.



I managed to find his weakness, yet i didn't make use of it properly.



WHY?!

Falling for someone is always so hard,



But getting someone is even harder,



And it ends HARDER than ever.



Getting into Relationships is really complicatedd =/

New sight

Went training today.



As usual, did the routine and shuttle drills.



Need a new motivation to boost up my morale.



"Searching for the new target..."

Sakae SUshi

WOw...what a nice MEAL today....never take Lunch and had tea time, but heavy ones...

Went to Sakae Sushi with Victor, Chia Wei, Samson and Friend.

Our Twin Tower !!!

Hooray !!!

Curve

Went to Curve with Peng Hong, Peng Shian, Hua Jen and myself.

Had Sakae Sushi for Lunch and then watched "UP", really a nice movie, worth a watch =D

Saw this Adidas Booth that is promoting their deodorants and perfumes, last day offer.

Bought a Perfume and Deodorant, and because i bought above RM30, i'm entitled to play a game to win prizes.

Played a Wii Game and managed to win another Perfume of different edition =D

What a fruitful day for me

Merdeka!

Merdeka!



Great....i missed it...why??



Too tired as a result of training and didn't manage to countdown and missed it...



HAHA

Winning

Winning by opponent's mistakes isn't an achievement...



But some said because i managed to cause my opponent to create mistakes...



But my opponent really made a lot of mistakes by himself during yesterday's match...



Argh...



I guess i should just move on and work on!

Motivations and Targets

After resuming physical exercise to get back my condition, i realised that i am slower than before.



Need to have some motivations and set some targets.



"Take losing as a stepping stone to success"

Resume

Just resumed Physical Exercise today. Feeling of laziness after taking 2 days break, now it's time to start working hard again.



This time, EVEN HARDER!



Break the tradition, no more first round exit!

So close yet so far...

Social Badminton Tournament was indeed a much more "disappointing" tournament once more, with me getting first round exit and second round loss.



The singles section:

First round against Wong Kok Yee.

The whole match was basically a much more....got opportunity to win but missed it? The first game was a lost when i lose out 10-21 because i was facing a lot of pressure and tense. Couldn't really read his game much and then a lot of mistakes happened there.

The second game was a much satisfied performance for me, but somehow i was lacking of something to close up the game. It was a neck-to-neck fight between my opponent and the score came from 1-0, 1-1, 2-1, 2-2....and so on...and i managed to take the lead twice with the 2 points gap...but i wasted it. My opponent was so tired till he kept asking for short breaks and towel down, but i just blow the opportunity to make a rubber game. When the score reached 17-17, i started to become desperate and wanted to go for some winning shots and my winning shots did not pay the price, instead most of it went OUT....and the game ended 17-21.


Score: 10-21, 17-21


Another exciting match of the day was the match of Kevin Lee Wei Yang vs. Ng Yap Siang.
This match was the match of the day when Kevin was really the player with Fighting SPirit, not willing to give up the match and tried to hang on it. He really gave that player(i assumed him to be a circuit player) some nerves and ....a really good match and good fight he gave today.

A player i will salute indeed.

The score was : 23-21, 15-21, 14-21



Doubles:

My partner and i managed to get Firstround-bye so we started off with the second round. The opponent we met was really great, doubles specialist. Today, my partner and i were lacking of communication so it didn't went so well, but we tried to give our best to our opponents. It didn't turned out to be that great...but...it already happened.

Score: 10-21, 17-21



Conclusion:

This tournament indeed gave me a new experience on where to work on and improve. A brand new exposure meeting all kinds of players and of cause...meeting pretty girls, anyways, Gotta work harder and perform well in the coming tournament.



"The moment when i wasted that opportunity was really......"


To Soon Ong: It's okay bro. Don't put the blame on yourself. We already gave our best and at least made them sweat! Haha! Let's now look at the future and improve on our mistakes.

The final day/hours to come

Alright, here it goes...



Just few more hours left to Social badminton tournament, definitely there's some excitement in me and also some nervosity, but i shall try to handle it well tomorrow...



Went to Pharmacy to find those Athletic tape but all of them are telling me "tak ada lah...sorry"....Darn....



Had training today in Nusa today. Coach Doni gave some shuttle drills and asked me to played a few games of singles and doubles today. From there, i was able to find the confidence which wasn't there yesterday.



At the end of training, had a small little chat with Coach Doni. He told me that my muscle was tired and worn out for the few days back, that's why i couldn't perform during the match against Bryan yesterday.



Currently resting at home, preparing myself and going to sleep early tonight.



Judgement day tomorrow !



Here i Come !

2 more days, but with all sorts of obstacles

Just 2 more days to Social Badminton Tournament. The usually-me getting excited did not happened, instead, something disastrous happened....



Had sparring sessions with Chris, Bryan, Chiu and Henry today at Taman Megah. It was okay at first, but then things happened later on...



It was all fine when we played doubles properly, but today was a bit lacking of the speed and precision, so i made pretty much mistakes. As the game moved on, i was trying to bring out my best but couldn't.



That moment, when i played a net shot which is slightly higher, my opponent tapped the shuttle and directly the shuttle flew towards my cheekbone(right directly below my eye) and immediately the whole cheekbone went swollen.



Applied some ice and rest for a while. Tried to play back and resume the sparring session with a one-sided blurr vision.



After playing loads of doubles matches, we had singles sparring session. I played against Bryan and it started off by a neck-to-neck points, but later on my mistakes came in and ended up threwing the first game away.



The second game was a disaster. I didn't know what was i playing and my movements(footwork) were seriously SLOW compared to few days ago. In the end, i lost the match.



Just couldn't hold up myself, broke down and tears flow down from my eyes. The moment of silence revolved around me.



I know crying out loud isn't going to change the scenario to any better, but i just feel like doing so...



I just don't know how to answer myself. I don't mind losing, but the problem is i lost the match feeling regretful because I could not give my best. If i did give my best shot, i will lose without feeling any moments of regrets.



Anyways, credits to Bryan



I know i have to be positive at this moment, i have to put down this disastrous moment and look forward to prepare for this saturday's tournament. I wish that this nightmare will not haunt me on the day itself.



Please....i beg myself too....i don't want it to happen on me...



Tomorrow's training will provide an answer to saturday's performance, POSITIVE!

3 days before Social Badminton Tournament

Just 3 more days to Social Badminton Tournament and the feeling is just great. The excitement causes my blood to rush throughout my body like Blood Boiling =)



Yet, still some muscle aches around...



Had some light exercise today to maintain the fitness level and also to prevent my legs from getting lazy.



Shall try to Play-Safe these 2 days to be Injury Free =D

4 more days to Social Badminton Tournament

Just 4 more days to Social Badminton Tournament.



Went for training this morning. It was a tough one today, along with leg muscles aching accompanying me today, training was surely one hell for me XD



Managed to join Coach Zul and Coach Rahman today. Training was tough and really had to work hard for every exercise and drills given.



Currently experiencing Pelvic and Left thigh Muscle ache.



Eventhough it was tough, but it gave me a very brand new experience of playing Singles and a new way to improve my gameplay and playing style.



Draw is out today. Don't know who is the opponent, never heard of him before, but shall be careful and not underestimate.

Sparring Day 1/5 days left for Social Badminton Tournament

Today's sparring session at Megah. Played Singles and Doubles.



The Singles match-up was the thrilling, memorable yet a good experience for me to work on my weaknesses.



Opponent of the day: Chris

Score: 20-22, 21-16, 8-21



The first game was an equally fair out when both of us made a lot of mistakes such as my net shot couldn't pass over the net and Chris's clears going out of the baseline. Was a bit slow and couldn't build up momentum in the first game. Lost out 20-22




Second game was a much better game for me when i took more initiative to attack and put in the shots. Chris played in a lot of drives which were very dangerous to me. Luckily i managed to secure the second set with the score 21-16.








The third game was a disaster and lop-sided match. It was a neck-to-neck scoring from both of us from 0-0 to 8-8, but after that point, i started to make more mistakes such as smashing into the net, out, and so on...and that came to an end with the score 8-21.



Moments of disappointments...sitting down at the bench, looking at the floor and flashbacks of the match showing my mistakes. The sweat flowed down from my forehead to my neck....i sat down calmly....










It was a great experience for me and a pleasure to play with Chris. He gave me a new idea of singles after playing against him and some inspiration to add into my style. Last but not least, lets not forget Philip and Henry for giving a good quality of doubles games today.

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1 more week

Hi guys, im back again once more blogging...These few days i hardly blog because i'm really busy preparing for this upcoming Social Badminton Tournament.



Heart beats faster as nervosity finds me. This tournament will now show how much i improved after training for 8 months.



During today's badminton club session(after training), CRAMPED my leg and my shoulder muscle PULLED !!!!



Ahh....



Just for today, going to have more sparring sessions on next week before saturday arrives.



*Pant pant*

Social Badminton Tournament

Just 2 more weeks again, it's close to Social Badminton Tournament. The excitement that causes my blood to rush and pumped up! My heart beats faster and quicker than i normally do...




Been really putting in all i got and going to give it all out and the best of it this coming 22nd August. New challenges, new players and new styles of gameplay will be the biggest challenge for me in this tournament.





With the huge sponsors around, guess i cannot embarrass myself and really play at my best form, if not, really feel sorry for myself.





Nevertheless, let's not waste that much time talking...Work hard for this 2 weeks and ready to play!

REHDA annual dinner

On Monday, I was asked to go for REHDA's annual dinner last minute due to some of my dad's colleague who were down with flu, so i took over their place as "subtitutes".






When i arrived at One World Hotel, it was so grand, at the moment i stepped out of the car, it was like you are some VIP with all those porters guiding you, opening your door and leading you into the lounge.






When i arrived at the lounge with my parents and sister, there were so many BIG SHOTS chit-chatting and having drinks. Most of them are all famous Developers but i only managed to remember some, so some of it are Sunway, Malton and Tropicana.





We were finally allowed to be seated in our seats. The hall was so big that it can fit almost up to 100 tables.(i think there were 100 tables) The event was just awesome with a small orchestra group playing some music, really soothing...





At last, our long waited VIP of the day, our Prime Minister of Malaysia, Dato Seri Najib arrived and he walked into the hall and everybody stood up clapping for him. Coming in along with him were the other VIPs such as REHDA's president and Ministry of Electrical Energy(if not mistaken).




The dishes that night was alright, but what caught me was the speech given by the Prime Minister of Malaysia. It was filled with motivation and you can feel some energy flowing through your body and you can say that his speech is really "Powerful", just can feel it.




Anyways, some pictures for all that night(didn't manage to get the Prime Minister's pics, he was too far)























Me

Lies

It was all lies after all....



While sitting down at the cafe with Sean eating our lunch, she walked pass with her ex...



Seeing them together and holding hands together...



I realised that i was fooled by her...



Why is it so unfair in this society? Why i always end up with this kind of ending? Why do i have to face this? Why?!



The moment i saw you back with your ex, i knew things weren't right...



I just knew that.....



I trusted and put all my heart into the wrong person....

During training today, your image kept flashing in my mind, i could not really focus during training today....



Sitting at the restaurant looking into the cup of tea, the surface of the tea reflected your image and you appeared in my mind again....



When strumming and plucking the strings of the guitar, the melody echoed your voice and the feeling of missing someone has yet to appear again...



Everywhere i go, everything i do, you will always appear and be there in my mind....



Hope to see you soon...

夠愛

我穿越金星 木星 水星 火星
土星土星追尋你 時間滴滴答滴答 答滴聲音

指頭還殘留 你為我 擦的指甲油
沒想透 你好像說過
你和我 會不會有以後
世界一直一直變 地球不停的轉動
在你的時空 我從未退縮懦弱
當我靠在你耳朵 只想輕輕對你說
我的溫柔 只想讓你都擁有

我的愛只能夠 讓你一個人獨自擁有
我的靈和魂魄 不停守侯 在你心門口
我的傷和眼淚 化為烏有 為你而流
藏在無邊無際 小小宇宙
愛你的我

愛你的我 不能停止脈搏
為了愛你奮鬥就請你讓我 說出口

愛只能夠 讓你一個人獨自擁有
我的靈和魂魄 不停守侯 在你心門口
我的傷和眼淚 化為烏有 為你而流
藏在無邊無際 小小宇宙
愛你的我 yeah~ 愛你的我 yeah~


我穿越金星 木星 水星 火星 土星土星追尋你
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A glimpse of new hope

Just a few days of communication, i found you a different person. I found you very special from the rest and gave me hope and courage to step into college everyday.

Previously, I just took you normally as a friend and did not really care about you. After hearing from you recently, i can feel the kind of "moody" atmosphere of yours around you. Being a normal friend, i stood out and consoled you.

Just within days and weeks, I found out that you were sad because of him. You couldn't stop thinking of him and trying to contact him. I kept myself busy thinking ideas to make you smile and let the cloudy skies fade away. I wished to look at your smile that brighten everyone's day.

Somehow, you manage to put him aside and smiled back again. I was happy to see that you smile and forget about it. I put a smile on my face too. Being afraid that you may feel lonely back in KL alone, i wish that i can always be there to help you.

Maybe things will work out or not? I can't give my answer to myself, but as long i can see you smile and be aside of you to overcome obstacles and challenges, whenever you always seek for help and need aid, i will always be there for you.

Impian7 Badminton Tournament

It was a very bright day and we started off our tournament with our first round. We managed to secure our first round by defeating our opponent with the score 30-20 (the organiser only wanted to use 30 points to save time instead of using the 21x3 points system)



Our first round was at 11:20am and the second round is at 9:40pm. We played our first round and won, so we waited for our 2nd round. Meanwhile waiting, we went to McD with my other teammates to have lunch.



After that, we had dinner at some place and once again we headed back to the tournament venue. We headed back to the venue and took some rest for a while.



Our match number has been announced. We had 20 minutes time to prepare. Before that, i did some warm ups to get myself ready and psyched up. As the time comes nearer, my heart beat went faster and i was slightly nervous as our opponents are quite strong.



The match started and it was a neck-to-neck trail as we are just 1 point behind of the opponent's score. We did not give up and showed them our fighting spirit regardless of how good they are. The opponents are also tactically smart. Most of their smashes were all towards our bodies and this made us hard to defend quickly enough to counterattack. The score went to 13-15 (opponent leading at 15 points) and we had to switch sides to the other side of the court.



During the Interval, i told my partner to remain calm and steady without fear. We resumed the match and we managed to level the score at 16-16, but due to nervosity and pressure, we made many kinds of mistakes and the opponent took the opportunity and pulled the gap to a 5 points lead. I felt the pressure and more mistakes were made by my partner and myself.




At last, we lost out to them 19-30, but yet, a good fight given to the opponents. Wish them luck anyways. Later on, outside the hall, a few of the spectators came and asked about the match and told me that i had given them a good fight.

Thanks to all and this tournament really gave me a whole new experience a new view on doubles.

Next tournament, Social Badminton Tournament (August 22- 23)

2 more days!

Just 2 more days and it's time for my hardwork to payoff...







Impian7, here i come !

4 more days

Just 4 more days left, but all of a sudden, i felt a pain in my wrist...



Crap, this should not be happening at this moment...



I guess i'll take a day break from training and resume the next day...

5 more days

Just 5 more days and Impian7 tournament is about to arrive, heart beating faster...

Looking back for the past few months i've been training hard, i hope the effort can now show some results in this tournament...

I know inconsistency is what every player is afraid of, but at least i shall try to give my best and not regret of what i did...

Just 5 more days and it's time to prove to myself that the hardwork and effort can give it's results...

I will not disappoint those who have been supporting me all the time...

=)

Things just need to change sometimes

Sometimes, the sky is blue...



Sometimes, the sky is covered with clouds...



Sometimes, the sky is dark....



Will i see Blue Sky everyday?

Last Day of Work

Finally, after working 7 weeks, it's the last day of work...



Had lunch with the site office staffs...the lunch was awesome....had it in Kuala Selangor....



We had our lunch until 2pm, then drove back from Kuala Selangor to Rawang, then had Durian there...just so crazy...



I had to drink ENO in order to just make myself feel "comfortable" when my stomach felt bloated >.<



Farewell Rawang =D




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Meanwhile, it's just 2 weeks before Impian 7 Shah Alam Tournament....



In this 2 weeks, push myself back to best form and then face the tournament with excitement...



I'm Coming...

Lesson

When Soon scored the last point and won the match....



My racquet fell off from my hand...



I looked down at the floor and kneeled down, slamming the floor with my hands...



Sitting down at the corner of the hall with towel covering my head...



Tears were flowing down from my eyes...



I just lost the match so sudden, and just being down..



Suddenly, Coach Doni came over and told me...



"Kekalahan adalah Pengajaran"



I looked up and he gave me a smile...



I clinched my fist and promised that i will stand up again

It was quite hard to accept the fact when i was told about it...



My tears just feel like falling off...



They say guys don't cry....



I hold my tears...



I know it's a bit hard to accept and do so..



At least i can let go the burden i held so long....

Reply

I sat on the chair with my cell phone on the table....



Looking at the phone, waiting for it to notify me with the text message alert...



It was then i realised you are very special...



Every minute, every seconds, the clock is ticking and counting...



Time has passed and one hour just went off...



But i'm still sitting on the same chair looking at my cell phone waiting for your reply....



Waiting for your reply.....

I did plenty of mistakes today, was not even concentrating on what i'm doing...



Thinking back makes me feel like a moron, such idiotic acts and decision that lead to mistakes, seeing myself fooling on the court, i feel like an idiot...



I stood there and thought for few seconds, but my mind was not at concious state, more to a "Fooling" state which causes the failure myself....



"Wake up Zhi Wei! Wake up!"



It's no point "snoozing" there, not knowing what you have done, all the mistakes, they are simple, just focus on your match and you will be able to reduce it...



WAKE UP !

Ipoh

The trip to Ipoh this time was a memorable one



It was special to me

Sometimes....



It's better to not know about something too much...



If u knew too much about it, you will start thinking too much....



You will only suffer the pain....



That causes Dilemma and sometimes turning you to become Hesitant...

Surprise

Something's gonna change on the 18th June 2009



Check it out on my 19th Birthday =D



"Regaining touch"


"Float like a Butterfly, Sting like a Bee"

Living in the shadow

It was all good and suddenly it became like this again...



What has happened? Why does it always have to come back?



Just last week i was still able to give what I've got, but this week, nothing just turned out to be good at all...



Why me?

Passed!

I passed my econs! Hooray !!!!!!!!!!!



Wee~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The promise

I promise Coach Rahman something very motivating...



"Lepas kamu jadi bagus, mainlah sama saya" says Coach Rahman



I will train hard till that day comes

Lighter

I felt lighter after putting down the high expectations i have on my own and the pressure, able to perform better...



I guess it's the mind who controls the performance overall...

Believe in Yourself

"All the support and hope you all gave to me, I will never forget"



"Through pain and failure I shall learn, to stand up again and play well"



"I will not disappoint all of you, I promise!"

The days are normal recently, working all day long...



Anybody experienced being uncomfortable at unfamiliar places such as new areas that u haven't play before?



Will you be unable to perform in that place itself?

"Kamu tidak berfikir mana nak letak shot kamu...."



"Kamu perlu mengurangkan mistake kamu, banyak simple mistake..."



"Basic stroke kamu belum begitu baik, perlu drill banyak lagi..."



"Semasa ke court, nak start game, mesti ada semangat yang baik untuk mula..."



These words are said by Coach Doni, i know it hurts for sure, but this does not tell me that it is the end, i will not give up !



"Gerak Cepat, Fikir Cepat, Shot Cepat" , I will remember this !

Rest in peace my friend

Rest in peace to my friend Bingo, though it's just a dog, but he already lived with us for 11 years and we considered him as part of our family member. Thank you for being with us, serving us and accompany us for so long until the end of journey of life.



I remembered Bingo first joined us in the year 1998, where i was just 8 years old. He was the cutest puppy among all the other dogs we saw, furry and very lazy =)



We brought Bingo home and played with it, taking care of Bingo and soon Bingo became familiar with us and became part of our family. Mum loved Bingo the most and she always hug Bingo, when Mum is down or lonely, Bingo will always be there, no matter how it is, and Bingo will endure of the pain regardless of how serious it would be without acknowledging us.



Bingo was not that close to me, as i did not give him much attention. Eventhough our relationship is not as close as his relationship with Mum, yet Bingo still do like me regardless of who i am. Dad always bring Bingo for a walk and Bingo was never a naughty dog. Loyal and obedient as always, Mum gave him the best that she can.



In Year 2008, a friend of my mum gave us another dog because her friend couldn't keep so many dogs at home. The new dog that joined us is Fei Fei, a pekingnese. Our attention were all diverted to Fei Fei and i remembered that moment where Bingo was left aside and being so cold there alone. There is always Jealousy war at home and also Cold War between Bingo and Fei Fei.


It's been almost 1 year but all in within a year, Bingo's health has drastically getting worse and severe. Bingo couldn't walk like he used to be, and his legs are as skinny as bone, his appetite has gone worse, could not control his own eating habit and also not able to stand as steadily as he used to be always. He tends to eat more vigorously and was afraid that Fei Fei may come to fight for his food. That moment, his health gotten worse until 1 day we realised that he didn't want to eat his food, nor even drinking water. He hid himself at the corner for 3 days without food and water.



Feeling strange, we all went to look at him. Bingo could not even bare to stand up and he just lied there and the pungent smell all over the area. He could not even stand up to go pee, which then we knew something was wrong already. Mum called up the doctor to seek for solutions regarding about Bingo's health condition. The Doctor said that nothing was able to be done and it's only waiting for it's time to go.



Bingo didn't want to leave us alone as he was afraid that we will be lonely without him, and he hang on himself and tried to stay up. Mum saw him suffering like this and she had heartaches over him. She told Bingo, "It's okay boy, we can take care of ourselves. You did your part" and Bingo was just lying there on the floor, breathing heavily and barely able to move his limbs. The only thing he was able to do is by drinking and licking the water we supplied to him.



The next morning, my parents went out to walk in the morning. Before she went out, she told Bingo that "it's okay to go, no worries anymore boy..." . I was still sleeping on my bed and assuming that it was still 7am where it actually is already 9am, silly me. I woke up and went downstairs to have my breakfast. I heard my mum was calling the veterinarians and acquiring details about injecting or putting the dog to sleep. I was sitting in front of the TV watching and enjoying my breakfast. I saw Bingo lying on the ground, but i assumed that it was still alive, until the maid shouted loudly "Bingo die already..."



The moment of silence arrived, and immediately Mum hung up the call and me rushing to find out the truth, and it really turned out to be true. Mum held herself silent for a moment, and she decided to bury Bingo in the garden, since he belonged to this family and this house, and we did the burial of Bingo the whole morning.



Here i am typing about this after burying Bingo, just couldn't hold my tears, 11 years of friendship....



May you rest in peace, Bingo







This is the only picture i have in my laptop, you will always be in my memories

I have bad feelings that i may fail Econs...



The fear crawl into my veins....



really makes me nerves....

Economics

Just one more day left towards my final paper, Economics..



First time taking this subject, felt different from other subjects...



Facing this battle all alone, it's up to myself to face this battle alone....

It's just refreshing after today's training, i can find confidence again =)



Took me some time at first, but after some time, i just feel the feeling is back....



Sometimes i think an injury really gives me time to reflect myself to be better....

Revive

It's time to revive!



I shall resume training tomorrow =)

People have 2 faces....



I can't trust anyone else...

=(

Darn it, my parents don't allow me to go training tomorrow...



They tell me to go after exams?



I want to recover my form...Oh my GOD!!!!!

Have been starting to do some light workout for badminton...



Some shadows and some wall drills...



Will come back slowly...

I don't feel energetic at all...



I just feel so lifeless at the moment, no energy to walk, no energy to run, or even to talk...



Tiring isn't it, tend to sleep more often...



Just wondering why am i not so active??



That kind of explosive movements and agile speed, where is it?

Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament

Today's tournament was a blessing in disguise for me...Partnered Andy and played doubles(because there's only doubles game) for this tournament...

(Note: Only 1 game and 21 points, no deuce)




First round we played off against some dude, was a close match, supposingly we are having the advantage, but sadly we wasted it and made many mistakes, lost out in 19-21..



Then we were sent to the loser pool, where players are given second chance to play...we went up till Quarter Finals and finally we went down to some lecturer partnering an ICT Staff with the score 14-21...


Here's the path all the way to Quarter Finals:

1st round: 21-10

2nd round: 21-7

Quarter Finals: 14-21



At first, we were able to keep up with the momentum and able to take the lead at 11-10, but they managed to catch up till 13-13, where my partner started to get panic and made many mistakes and they caught up till 19-13, and only we managed to scored back a point from them...they went ahead of us and i made a mistake at the last point and then GAME...we lost to them....Was an exciting and close match there...



Wish to be play better, but currently with an elbow injury bugging me, i guess it's no good for me...



Have to start training back already, get back the confidence i used to have...



Finals coming soon, studies first ~ then back to intensive training =)

1 day

Just one more day left and Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament arrives....



With my current form today, i don't know whether can i perform like how i used to be in 1 month ago?



I just made plenty of crappy mistakes and they are just annoying....



Guess to become a good player, the first thing i need to get rid off are mistakes...



I need inspiration...



*Sigh*

Just 2 more days

It's just 2 more days to Taylors Badminton Tournament and all of us are getting excited...



I'll be heading the tournament with my partner, Andy...



For now, we gotta stay focus and in our mind, there's only one target...



"Don't give up and fight till the very last point"



Yep !

Mind

My mind tells me to take the shot, the next second it told me to give up that shot....



My mind tells me to execute that shot, but then seconds later my mind tells me to do another kind of shot...



It's kinda confusing me somehow....



My mind is not forcing me to move, it's just making me stoning there, doing nothing...



I lost that "force" to move around court quick and reach my shots earlier....



Please "force" it out from me....

Challenge

I faced a stiff challenge today...


Lost out to Lawrence, a friend Henry brought today....really consistent guy he is...lost to him in the first game 13-21...did not continue the 2nd game due to time constrain....


I could move towards his shot, but i got cheated by him, he's very steady and he knows how to set up his game, impressive indeed...


Before i can proceed anywhere else, he will be my boulder and this is a new challenge for me !


New Challenge New Target to Achieve !

So close yet so far...

Reached at the tournament at 12pm, saw a lot of exciting matches...made my heart beat so quick...



Many good players were playing there, met some of my friends there too....Really exciting game...



Waited for my doubles match for quite some time yet it was delayed for another hour, watched some exhibition match of national players playing such as Tan Chun Seang, Gan Teck Chai, Tan Bin Shen, Chong Wei Feng and Liew Daren....



After that, they didn't annouce our match number, instead they skipped to the girl's singles...felt strange and went to ask the management...according to them, our opponent didnt turn up, so it was a walkover for us =_="



Waited for another few hours and finally here comes my 2nd round...Played against some veteran...due to the inexperienced me and Melvin, we screwed up our game into some crap...Lost out to our opponent 13-21, 9-21



Was a bit wasted, there was a chance to win the match... T_T



I will train harder, now my level motivates me to get better...

Phew

Finally, econs assignment is finally over for me...the crazy nightmare...



Now can start focusing on my tournaments !


Oh yea ! Time to get started ! =)

Was a satisfying match against philip eventhough i lost...



Score was 21-19, 15-21, 12-21

I kinda lost my feelings when i went for training yesterday...



Couldn't feel the kind of "paksa" feeling in my footwork, i don't know why...



Lost that kind of aggresive and offensive play i used to have...



What is wrong....


Tell me....

Im kinda tired nowadays....i wonder why....

Endurance

Yesterday's training was purely tough, with lots of matches i have to play....



Coach Doni instructed me and asked me to continue to stay on court...



Strokes weren't that good, footwork was just an "ok" for me, not good...



Smashes were all inconsistent...bad...



Need to improve on that, by next week i have to be ready

Assignments !

Boo ~~~ to assignments !!!



I'm currently packed with Technical English 2, Building Materials and Economics Assignment and guess what, their submission date are like all sticking together >.<



9/4/09 - TE2 Draft

13/4/09 - Building Materials Assignment Report

17/4/09 - Economics Assignment Report




Headache and Tired >.<

Revive

It's time to wake up, not standing there and getting left behind, pick up the racquet and work hard again...



It's time to Revive !

First round casualties

Once again, I bowed out to my opponent with the score 17-30...



I admit that I did not do enough of preparation...



Opponent was great too, hard smashes, good reflexes, really gave me some headache of placing the shots...



Made many mistakes at the start which gave my opponent a big gap to lead the game, was never able to close the gap...



Smashes are powerful, many of it killed me =(



Now that i have known where my mistakes are, it's time to change to prepare for 18th and 25th april...

Form

I did many mistakes today during sparring sessions when playing against Melvin....lost in 21-14, 12-21, 18-21...



Did not touch my racquet since last sunday and tomorrow is the tournament....



Just gotta try my best, regardless of losing or winning...



All the best to Tze Voon and Jackson too =)



Will not disappoint everybody...

Departure

I will go back to Kelantan tomorrow to pay the last respect to my grandmother

>.<

Thigh muscle pulled...



AHAHAHA...



Why at this moment har?



Aiyer....

Many things have been happening lately....



I just don't know what to do...



May the light shine the path for me and show me where to go....

She knew about it...


I'm completely lost...


What should i do....

Isolation

I knew this girl in my class, found her very special indeed, but strangely, things didn't go as smooth as it should be...



Initially, we can chat and go along well as friends, but however i had feelings for her and i found her special and unique, and decided to try putting down "someone" far across the ocean at melbourne....



I just could'nt find out the reason why you treat me like this...Sometimes you talk to me loads and we can laugh along, joke along with our crappy jokes, sometimes you leave me alone like what i'm currently experiencing now....putting me aside, leaving me aside and shiver alone in the cold at the dark corner...



Why do you have to treat me like this? Where did i went wrong? I really want to know the reason why you started "ignoring" me like this...It's just like you're treating me Hot-and-Cold....can you tell me why?



Why does it have to be like this? Why? I don't mind how others treat me, whatever they want to do to me, i don't mind...but not you please?



Please give me one chance and let me know what's happening....



I don't want to be isolated or being "ignored"...the feeling is just bad, u know that right girl....

Things are getting stranger nowadays, people start to act weird nowadays....



Everything is moving so fast around me, i can feel the speed...



To survive, i have to keep up the pace with them...

RAWR!

Be brave and not to fear opponent, fear nobody....



Show the courage you have to your opponent and let them fear of you....



Rawr !



Note: Oh no...so random =.="

The man didnt turn up....



Darn...i really got cheated !

Cheated

I encountered this situation today...



When i was walking to the parking lot, i walked pass a malay guy mid-aged 30. He was talking on the phone and i just ignored him and walked on....suddenly he shouted at me...at first i thought it was nothing, but suddenly i stopped and he managed to catch up with me...He started listening to my stories, and i just stood there doing nothing but listening...He asked for RM17 to buy the car battery, which he said he was lacking of money...Initially, I didn't trust him and i wanted to just ignore and walk off, but then he was begging me non-stop and finally i sympathised him and gave him the RM17....



I don't know what I'm doing was right or wrong, I just couldn't tell the consequences I will face and what will happen in the future...I just didn't know how to react that quick at that moment, somehow i felt that there was like i got cheated >.<



This world is not like the world it used to be, where people are kind hearted and willing to help each other without concerning of backgrounds, how much money you have and so on....but now it has changed...



The society tends to be so selfish, not thinking of others...seeing someone in need but just refusing to lend a hand... This is because of the changes in the world, economic changes where people lose jobs, couldn't get what they want and started to become greedy....People in the past used to be generous and sharing, but now they are greedy and selfish, refusing to help and only care for themselves....



The world and the society has now turned into a century and decade of darkness where people cheat others to gain benefits and the victims suffer the pain...it's just getting wild...regardless of what age they are, they cheat those innocent citizens causing some of them to commit suicide or even got killed...



Some activities such as Cheating, Imposting, Kidnapping demanding for ransom, prank calls have been becoming frequent nowadays, causing many people to suffer and unable to live in peace...the harmonous atmosphere is gone...regardless of what age they are, they will cheat you no matter how...



I couldn't differentiate what I did was right or wrong...I do not know whether the man cheated or not....I do not know why I borrowed him the RM 17, I do not know why my instincts made me react like this....thus, it has became complicating for myself.....I started to think more and more, making myself confused...



What can be done to save the society....? Can't we have the kind heart to help? Is it true that we can't be merciful anymore?



Things changed...this world became cruel....leaving no one sympathised...

Assignment Rush and Mid Terms=(



Will not be blogging at the moment, but will respond to Cbox...



Leave msg if anything =)

Im pissed off that my car got clamped for stupid reason...



And i need to pay RM50 for a stupid reason....



It's obviously their fault...

What if...?

What if i have a large amount of money, I would love to get some nice cars =)

What should i get?

Lamborgini Reventon?

Aston Martin DB9?

Nissan Skyline GTR R35?

OR

Nissan Fairlady 350Z?

XD

Form

Back on Form...


Time to maintain it....

When seeing someone u have feelings on falls into the arms of another person,



The feeling is real bad,



Just like a knife piercing into my own heart,



Why does it revolve around me?



Wouldn't it be better if humans do not have feelings? At least we don't need to suffer...

Just a random post of mine =)


Nothing happening much recently...LOLS...

At the moment when I was coming back from off-form, the worst moment has arrived...



Elbow Injury......




Why does the worst moment has to come at this moment...?



Aiyer......

I can feel it...


More effort !!!


The effect comes slowly now...

Lesson

Finally, i found "myself" again, thanks to Coach Zul, but i should not be that happy yet, there's still many things i have to settle...



Losing is a very good experience...



Winning will never make you learn...



Lose to learn how to win ~!

Off - On

During training, I can play and put in the shots and move quick...



During games and tournaments(off-training), i tend to make a lot of mistakes slow movement speed....



I wonder what is happening to me...



As what Jeeva said, good in training but bad during tournament isn't good...



I have to find the problem....

Encounters

Andy vs Zhi Wei

1 - 1


Number of meetings: 2


First encounter: Andy Won (11-21, 15-21)


Second Encounter: Zhi Wei Won (21-11, 18-21, 21-13)

Accident

I almost got into an accident today...



i guess i shouldn't be so desperate when i'm driving....

Finally....i finished my video making.... *sigh of relief*

Assignments

I just pray that i can finish the video presentation on time @.@

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My Valentines

Went out with Jesslyn for Valentines Day....

Acting EMO @ the apartment, curve





Jesslyn and me @ The Curve












Cake given by her...how sweet =D



Hope that you enjoyed your valentines day and hope we can go out again someday =)