Disappointment of ownself...

I guess this is the time i'm experiencing downhill performance...


Today morning, me and 3 other guys went to Taman Megah to have some game(Badminton)...and as usual...i'm one hour earlier again...waiting for the others....


But before that, i got screwed by my coach...saying that i did not want to go training, instead go and ajak people play game...


Finally, around 10:50, they arrived...and we started off with some strokes and warm ups..


Then doubles...and it was kinda WEIRD...somehow...having those feelings...


Then after many matches of doubles, we had stroke session again...and then Philip finally agreed to play with me singles...


I was very confident at first...but then i dunno why...all a sudden...he was trailing at 17-11....and i'm so far away...


I tried to catch up...and was able to take the lead to 19-17...and then i made mistakes...and we made it to 20-20....DEUCE...i did not expect a deuce to happen...but it happened anyway...


And then i managed to get the 1 point i reached the game point...but then Philip fought back and earned another 1 point...which makes it 21-21...


Then...he managed to win the first game by 23-21...


It was the 2nd game...i did not want to give up easily...and i played with him...


He started off easily and had a comfortable headstart...leading 10-4...i could not do anything and my mind wondered off somewhere....i couldn't move fast at all...i was slow...i admit...


Then...i couldn't chase up anymore...and then...i lost at last...with the score 10-21...


Final score of the game: 21-23, 10-21


Now...i feel very disappointing of my ownself...how can i lose out so many points?? What happened to my agressive gameplay?? WHere are all my attacks?? I'm lacking of attacks now...only 3 smashes throughout the whole game?? My game was very lembik, and i could not move swiftly like i usually do...


But my opponent, Philip played really well...his smashes were steep...straight at half court...so he managed to do much of those...and most of them are on the line...eventhough i knew it was on the line...yet many of the points i could not manage to save it....this is real bad....


He played many drives and most of them caught me too...and i can just say...


I fell into his Control in the whole match....

And so....disappointed of myself...many mistakes too....


Drives...suppose to use them but in the end, opponent used it instead....


Smashes...i'm lacking of those...opponent does it all...


Control game...horrible...i felt like that was not me playing just now...


I just feel disappointed of my ownself...playing so badly....and it's not once, but quite some time already...i guess i'm experiencing downhill performance....