Classes resumed as usual, been getting busier nowadays, since it's the last day of the semester. Stressful days, where i can't even get to go training or even find a way to improve myself.
When it was sem break back then, training was good, could just feel the effect, but once it's over, it's just so uneasy. I used to wake up in the morning, going to the court or the gym, but that day, the first day, the first thing i woke up is to attend classes. It's just so different.
My work is still as usual, didn't affect it much (fortunately, or else how to earn money =.="). Still finding a way how to get back to my best condition and top form....
Now there are 2 paths set ahead of me, to go left....or right....
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
July 23rd
It was great having you along and thank you for the ticket to the concert. Really appreciate it :)
Eventhough i get to go to the concert, it wouldn't be great or fantastic without you around. With your presence, it just feels Awesome!
Now the world is filled with colours with you around :)
Eventhough i get to go to the concert, it wouldn't be great or fantastic without you around. With your presence, it just feels Awesome!
Now the world is filled with colours with you around :)
Friday, July 8, 2011
Positive
Now that some said i improved, i do feel happy and satisfied, but somehow i try to tell myself not to get carried away by such praise or compliment, because i'm afraid that if i listen to it, i may get myself indulged in it and then my commitment and focus will be distracted.
I tried to tell myself though i see some bits of it, but the bright light is still far away from my reach. My hands stretched out at most to grab it but still out of reach. There's still a lot for me to work on.
Like today's match, i managed to play what i want to play, just that i made a few careless mistakes, some that shouldn't be done. I was confident that i could take my opponent down with my form today, but mistakes just did not make my day.
Eventhough i lost, but i told myself, "This is a good try men! Keep it up!" so that i can maintain my positive energy.
Stay Positive!
I tried to tell myself though i see some bits of it, but the bright light is still far away from my reach. My hands stretched out at most to grab it but still out of reach. There's still a lot for me to work on.
Like today's match, i managed to play what i want to play, just that i made a few careless mistakes, some that shouldn't be done. I was confident that i could take my opponent down with my form today, but mistakes just did not make my day.
Eventhough i lost, but i told myself, "This is a good try men! Keep it up!" so that i can maintain my positive energy.
Stay Positive!
Friday, July 1, 2011
1st of July
June already ended, now it's 1st of July. I wonder have i made any improvement throughout the month of June? Did i manage to do what i want? I don't know...
Since July is the last month i can train full time before my semester resumes, I just hope i can give my all and train harder than previously in June. I need to make results in tournament.
Let's just hope things will go along well...
Since July is the last month i can train full time before my semester resumes, I just hope i can give my all and train harder than previously in June. I need to make results in tournament.
Let's just hope things will go along well...
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Fear.
When i play against my opponent, i will tend to think a lot such as thinking where my opponent will place the shuttle and this causes me to have Fear inside me, fearing that i may get trapped by my opponent.
I need to play without fearing where my opponent will place the shuttle. As long as i'm ready, the fear will not be able to threathen me when i'm on court.
Somehow, this fear remains in me, it just can't get off me....
Fear...please leave me so that i will be brave enough to play it down!
I need to play without fearing where my opponent will place the shuttle. As long as i'm ready, the fear will not be able to threathen me when i'm on court.
Somehow, this fear remains in me, it just can't get off me....
Fear...please leave me so that i will be brave enough to play it down!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Training
Training nowadays is tiring for me, but i don't mind going through the tiring training and getting those muscle ache, as long as it pays off, I will train hard!
Stay focused and determined to reach my target.
Stay focused and determined to reach my target.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
After Final Exams
My final exams are finally over, after 3 weeks going crazy and hardcore for it. Been off from badminton during that time too. Life that time was really like a colourless, just so horrible, but at least now i can get back on court and enjoy again.
Can't wait to get back to training again, i miss all my friends there, the coaches and also the training atmosphere. I want to work hard again, get better and improve myself from the current now, which is not even stable when i go for tournaments, feels horribly bad.
Been facing some hard time with my parents, as they always ask me to go and work at the office like doing works related to my course. I really don't want to waste my semester break on that. I rather go and train hard and full time, at least i won't regret that i did not try. Anyways, after i graduate, i won't be able to train like this anymore, that time i will be working fully.
In life, how many 10 years do we have? How many things can we do during our youth? I don't want to let my youth just pass like this. I want to do something meaningful, achieve something before my youth ends.
To Full Time training! I must~! Train hard, go for tournaments and achieve results. That's how should things be done!
Can't wait to get back to training again, i miss all my friends there, the coaches and also the training atmosphere. I want to work hard again, get better and improve myself from the current now, which is not even stable when i go for tournaments, feels horribly bad.
Been facing some hard time with my parents, as they always ask me to go and work at the office like doing works related to my course. I really don't want to waste my semester break on that. I rather go and train hard and full time, at least i won't regret that i did not try. Anyways, after i graduate, i won't be able to train like this anymore, that time i will be working fully.
In life, how many 10 years do we have? How many things can we do during our youth? I don't want to let my youth just pass like this. I want to do something meaningful, achieve something before my youth ends.
To Full Time training! I must~! Train hard, go for tournaments and achieve results. That's how should things be done!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Sg.Buloh Tournament
Guess this was really a bad outing for me too. Craps. Participated in Singles, Doubles and Mixed Doubles. It's just horrible when what you wanted in your way didn't happen as you wanted.
My singles was a very disappointing match to me. My opponent was someone that i'm assured that i can have a chance to win. Based on his strokes, i have a plan in my mind how to play against him.
The game starts! He began to serve, i cleared to his overhead and he instantly gave me a half smash at my forehand side. I was shocked by that, but wasn't afraid of him. I continued to play against him, without fearing him, trying to reach for every shots he place. Somehow, things didn't went along well...
I tried to play the game i planned, but that didn't happen. He kept attacking me, i kept defending, i tried to play the net, but he played back the net instead, causing me to lift for him. That gave him the advantage of attacking me, which makes me vulnerable. I was clueless, playing blindly and blur during the first half of the match. I was just....totally lost.
The game came to 15-6, where it goes into the interval. Both me and my opponent changed sides. During the interval, i tried to calm myself and tell myself not to think so much and just play. When the game resumed, i tried to be more offensive. My offensive play and smashes managed to help me get back some points. I managed to pull the gap closer and trail the scoreline.
When the score was at 17-28, when my opponent was holding the service, my left thigh muscle suddenly felt pain. It feels like the muscle is pulling. I had no choice and walked aside to my bag and stood there. I tried to continue playing, but the pain was excruciating. I told the umpire to give me a break and he allowed me. Without wasting time, i pulled open the zip of my bag and took out the counterpain, sprayed it on my thigh, but to no avail, it didn't help.
Finally, i couldn't take the pain and called it off. I gave the walkover to my opponent, and there goes my first round. I guess this tournament wasn't really good for me.
What happen has happened. Only thing i can do now is Look Forward, Don't Look Back Anymore.
My singles was a very disappointing match to me. My opponent was someone that i'm assured that i can have a chance to win. Based on his strokes, i have a plan in my mind how to play against him.
The game starts! He began to serve, i cleared to his overhead and he instantly gave me a half smash at my forehand side. I was shocked by that, but wasn't afraid of him. I continued to play against him, without fearing him, trying to reach for every shots he place. Somehow, things didn't went along well...
I tried to play the game i planned, but that didn't happen. He kept attacking me, i kept defending, i tried to play the net, but he played back the net instead, causing me to lift for him. That gave him the advantage of attacking me, which makes me vulnerable. I was clueless, playing blindly and blur during the first half of the match. I was just....totally lost.
The game came to 15-6, where it goes into the interval. Both me and my opponent changed sides. During the interval, i tried to calm myself and tell myself not to think so much and just play. When the game resumed, i tried to be more offensive. My offensive play and smashes managed to help me get back some points. I managed to pull the gap closer and trail the scoreline.
When the score was at 17-28, when my opponent was holding the service, my left thigh muscle suddenly felt pain. It feels like the muscle is pulling. I had no choice and walked aside to my bag and stood there. I tried to continue playing, but the pain was excruciating. I told the umpire to give me a break and he allowed me. Without wasting time, i pulled open the zip of my bag and took out the counterpain, sprayed it on my thigh, but to no avail, it didn't help.
Finally, i couldn't take the pain and called it off. I gave the walkover to my opponent, and there goes my first round. I guess this tournament wasn't really good for me.
What happen has happened. Only thing i can do now is Look Forward, Don't Look Back Anymore.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament
It was a fine Saturday morning, i woke up at 6:40am and then get brushed up and pack up my badminton bag. It was just great when i feel confident. Had my breakfast and then headed to Andy's place to pick him up.
After picking up Andy, we took about 5 minutes to reach the tournament venue. There were some players already warming up and getting ready. Meanwhile, i was chatting with my bunch of friends and laughing around. Hehe.
I waited for my turn, did some stretching and then had some strokes with my friend. My match was being announced and there i go. I went over to the court where the match will be held.
I stroked with my opponent, trying to read his strokes and his ability. He seems good to me, quite equal. Then, the match begins. It was a 30 point 1 game for the first round, so it's a fast kill game i have to play.
My opponent chose the court and i took the service. The match begins and i served the shuttle. My opponent scored the first point. After the first point, i took the initiative to win more points and i did managed to do so, leading 8-5. My confidence grew and i was able to play and give out the game i usually play, and managed to get some cheap points from his mistake. The game then went into the interval, with me leading 15-10.
During the interval, i stood there wiping my sweat with my towel, telling myself, "I can do it! Just maintain the game like this."
After the interval, the game continued. I was playing the usual game of mine, but my opponent did manage to score some points too. The game went on and the score was 25-20, with me leading ahead of him.
All of a sudden, my concentration and focus lapsed. My mind kept telling me to find "shortcuts" in the game, and i kept trying. My mistakes and flaws appeared. My opponent took advantage of that and caught up with me. Eventually, he came back level and the score was 25-25.
My heart starts to beat faster, i felt pressured when he caught up. Then i took back a point, leading 26-25, but it didn't boost my confidence. Instead, my opponent became more confident, add in more attacks and he came back 28-26, taking the lead.
I took all kinds of ways to try to take back the lead, fighting hard, reaching out for every shot he place and trying to create an opportunity. Fortunately, i got back a few points and the score was 28-28. I stood still, holding the shuttlecock in my hand, trying to change the fate of mine, but then i made a simple mistake and there goes my 1 point to him, allowing him to lead 29-28.
It was the crucial moment of the match. I tried to hang on there, and thought of doing an overhead smash to get back the point. My opponent hold the shuttlecock, he gave a high service and immediately i reversed backwards quickly and jump! My hands swing quickly and contacted with the shuttle.
My smash didn't make it, it hit the net. The moment i saw my smash went into the net, i looked up at the ceiling of the hall, and looked at my opponent. My opponent stared at me and yelled out loudly at me and i went over and shook his hands. Just 2 points the difference, but it made a huge difference.
So close yet so far...some didn't have to work hard and they managed to get into the semi finals, while i trained so hard, putting every drop of my sweat into training, but ended up bowing out in the early rounds.
It's just so denying....
If i managed to get into the semi finals, then things will probably different...
After picking up Andy, we took about 5 minutes to reach the tournament venue. There were some players already warming up and getting ready. Meanwhile, i was chatting with my bunch of friends and laughing around. Hehe.
I waited for my turn, did some stretching and then had some strokes with my friend. My match was being announced and there i go. I went over to the court where the match will be held.
I stroked with my opponent, trying to read his strokes and his ability. He seems good to me, quite equal. Then, the match begins. It was a 30 point 1 game for the first round, so it's a fast kill game i have to play.
My opponent chose the court and i took the service. The match begins and i served the shuttle. My opponent scored the first point. After the first point, i took the initiative to win more points and i did managed to do so, leading 8-5. My confidence grew and i was able to play and give out the game i usually play, and managed to get some cheap points from his mistake. The game then went into the interval, with me leading 15-10.
During the interval, i stood there wiping my sweat with my towel, telling myself, "I can do it! Just maintain the game like this."
After the interval, the game continued. I was playing the usual game of mine, but my opponent did manage to score some points too. The game went on and the score was 25-20, with me leading ahead of him.
All of a sudden, my concentration and focus lapsed. My mind kept telling me to find "shortcuts" in the game, and i kept trying. My mistakes and flaws appeared. My opponent took advantage of that and caught up with me. Eventually, he came back level and the score was 25-25.
My heart starts to beat faster, i felt pressured when he caught up. Then i took back a point, leading 26-25, but it didn't boost my confidence. Instead, my opponent became more confident, add in more attacks and he came back 28-26, taking the lead.
I took all kinds of ways to try to take back the lead, fighting hard, reaching out for every shot he place and trying to create an opportunity. Fortunately, i got back a few points and the score was 28-28. I stood still, holding the shuttlecock in my hand, trying to change the fate of mine, but then i made a simple mistake and there goes my 1 point to him, allowing him to lead 29-28.
It was the crucial moment of the match. I tried to hang on there, and thought of doing an overhead smash to get back the point. My opponent hold the shuttlecock, he gave a high service and immediately i reversed backwards quickly and jump! My hands swing quickly and contacted with the shuttle.
My smash didn't make it, it hit the net. The moment i saw my smash went into the net, i looked up at the ceiling of the hall, and looked at my opponent. My opponent stared at me and yelled out loudly at me and i went over and shook his hands. Just 2 points the difference, but it made a huge difference.
So close yet so far...some didn't have to work hard and they managed to get into the semi finals, while i trained so hard, putting every drop of my sweat into training, but ended up bowing out in the early rounds.
It's just so denying....
If i managed to get into the semi finals, then things will probably different...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Training
Been putting in a lot of effort in training, lots of assignments in the way too.
Assignments, training, assignments, training....
Have to hold on all the way.
Taylor's closed coming this saturday, condition not so good, but hope i can give my best in there.
Assignments, training, assignments, training....
Have to hold on all the way.
Taylor's closed coming this saturday, condition not so good, but hope i can give my best in there.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Tournaments
The two tournaments i participated wasn't a very good outing for me.
The first tournament, Impian7 Doubles Tournament, 2 hours before match i suffered from fever and had to play through the match fever. Ended up losing in the first round.
The second tournament was JJB tournament at Wangsa Maju. I couldn't adjust myself towards the shuttle and my strokes. That cost a lot to me and ended up getting an early first round exit.
Next will be Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament. Can i do it?
Need to be on form during tournament la~
The first tournament, Impian7 Doubles Tournament, 2 hours before match i suffered from fever and had to play through the match fever. Ended up losing in the first round.
The second tournament was JJB tournament at Wangsa Maju. I couldn't adjust myself towards the shuttle and my strokes. That cost a lot to me and ended up getting an early first round exit.
Next will be Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament. Can i do it?
Need to be on form during tournament la~
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Panic
Match against Cedric:
21-13, 15-21, 19-21 [LOST]
Duration: 1:00 hour
It was so tough playing against him. He just somehow able to affectd o my mentality with just a few Yells and self encouragement. I told myself to calm down so i won't get affected by him, but seems like nothing worked.
In the first game, i started off not so well at the first half, i was still trying to find my own form, then i tried to up my speed and intercept his shots, fortunately it worked and i managed to pull the gap and raced to 21point.
Second set was slightly different this time. Made some simple mistakes and he managed to take the lead and made the gap huge. I try so hard to close the gap, but it was just so hard and i was also desperate of getting easy points, thus making huge mistakes and they were just so SIMPLE...in the end, the second set was claimed by Cedric.
The third set was all about mental game, see who is able to hang on till the last point and whoever makes mistake in the rally. It was really tough when he was leading 12-6, and in my mind i was going to give up, but suddenly i managed to take a few points back, so i decided not to give up at the point where the score was 14-18, and i tried working hard and fought the way till the score was 18-20. I took a deep breath, trying to get at least a few points of hope, and i managed to get it and just one more point, i'll make it a deuce.
The final point, my heart beating fast, my eyes opened wide, i started anticipating and predict what will he do, so i chose to do a flick serve, unfortunately he read my shot and he did a half smash down my forehand side line. I tried retrieving the smash but the moment my racquet touched my the shuttle, it hit the frame and deflected out.
The moment when the shuttle deflected out, i kneeled down on the court, looking at the green surface, blaming myself why i couldn't take that shot. It was just so denying to me, but then it's all over. I stood up and walked over to my opponent, giving him a smile and shook his hand.
It was closer this time, as compared to previous matches. Just made too many ambitious shots and i need to learn to be more focused and calm. Need more words of encouragement!
College closed tournament coming up! Gotta really perform!
21-13, 15-21, 19-21 [LOST]
Duration: 1:00 hour
It was so tough playing against him. He just somehow able to affectd o my mentality with just a few Yells and self encouragement. I told myself to calm down so i won't get affected by him, but seems like nothing worked.
In the first game, i started off not so well at the first half, i was still trying to find my own form, then i tried to up my speed and intercept his shots, fortunately it worked and i managed to pull the gap and raced to 21point.
Second set was slightly different this time. Made some simple mistakes and he managed to take the lead and made the gap huge. I try so hard to close the gap, but it was just so hard and i was also desperate of getting easy points, thus making huge mistakes and they were just so SIMPLE...in the end, the second set was claimed by Cedric.
The third set was all about mental game, see who is able to hang on till the last point and whoever makes mistake in the rally. It was really tough when he was leading 12-6, and in my mind i was going to give up, but suddenly i managed to take a few points back, so i decided not to give up at the point where the score was 14-18, and i tried working hard and fought the way till the score was 18-20. I took a deep breath, trying to get at least a few points of hope, and i managed to get it and just one more point, i'll make it a deuce.
The final point, my heart beating fast, my eyes opened wide, i started anticipating and predict what will he do, so i chose to do a flick serve, unfortunately he read my shot and he did a half smash down my forehand side line. I tried retrieving the smash but the moment my racquet touched my the shuttle, it hit the frame and deflected out.
The moment when the shuttle deflected out, i kneeled down on the court, looking at the green surface, blaming myself why i couldn't take that shot. It was just so denying to me, but then it's all over. I stood up and walked over to my opponent, giving him a smile and shook his hand.
It was closer this time, as compared to previous matches. Just made too many ambitious shots and i need to learn to be more focused and calm. Need more words of encouragement!
College closed tournament coming up! Gotta really perform!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
R.I.P my friend and brother of mine.
A tragic incident happened in my house, one of our family member, Yuan Yuan passed away. Eventhough he's a dog, but we treat it as a family.
It's hard for me to accept at the moment, but i have to stay strong.
It's really sad that he's gone. Normally with him around, the house will be filled with laughter and you can feel the joy in the house.
We will always love you and remember you forever.
Rest in Peace, my friend and brother of mine. R.I.P
It's hard for me to accept at the moment, but i have to stay strong.
It's really sad that he's gone. Normally with him around, the house will be filled with laughter and you can feel the joy in the house.
We will always love you and remember you forever.
Rest in Peace, my friend and brother of mine. R.I.P
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Just to let it out.
I just don't understand myself. When i play against faster players, I can put up my pace and try to match up with them, but when playing against player of the same speed and pace, i seem to slow down slightly, relax and then got controlled by the opponent.
It's my mindset that's playing me around. I feel crap, feeling really crap. Training so hard on movement and speed on court most of the time, why do i still end up getting controlled by a player of same pace? Shouldn't i be able to Put Up the Pace and then control him instead?
It's strange...
I'm not aiming for streaks, but i'm aiming to beat the player more consistently. If I still lose to the player frequently, then what's training for? What's all this i'm doing? Why play badminton?
Probably i'm just thinking too much...
I'm still not strong enough, i can only prove myself stronger when i beat them more consistently...
"Never let failure defeat you, Stand up and counter them"
It's my mindset that's playing me around. I feel crap, feeling really crap. Training so hard on movement and speed on court most of the time, why do i still end up getting controlled by a player of same pace? Shouldn't i be able to Put Up the Pace and then control him instead?
It's strange...
I'm not aiming for streaks, but i'm aiming to beat the player more consistently. If I still lose to the player frequently, then what's training for? What's all this i'm doing? Why play badminton?
Probably i'm just thinking too much...
I'm still not strong enough, i can only prove myself stronger when i beat them more consistently...
"Never let failure defeat you, Stand up and counter them"
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Viral infection
Once again, i got infected with viral infection in the big intestine, which indirectly similar to food poisoning, but just mild one.
Wanted to go training today, but seems like it's no good, so i didn't go for my training. Felt like i missed out a lot by not attending training today. Many upcoming events for me but then doctor told me to eat plain food and liquid food for 2 to 3 days, crap eh?
I need to wait for it to recover now, but then there's a very important match on Friday and how i wish i can play, but seems like it's not helping. I want to recover and play badminton again.
Please, i hope for miracle now, to recover faster...
Wanted to go training today, but seems like it's no good, so i didn't go for my training. Felt like i missed out a lot by not attending training today. Many upcoming events for me but then doctor told me to eat plain food and liquid food for 2 to 3 days, crap eh?
I need to wait for it to recover now, but then there's a very important match on Friday and how i wish i can play, but seems like it's not helping. I want to recover and play badminton again.
Please, i hope for miracle now, to recover faster...
Monday, January 17, 2011
Training
Went for training session this morning, was really what they called TRAINING. Did a lot of drills and non-stop for 2 hours.
After that, followed other players to the Gym to workout. Working out in the gym was tough since i don't always go to the gym, can really feel how weak my arm muscles are.
The coaches and the players are really helpful and hilarious. I can really feel the spirit of training harder and even eager to go further.
I should go more for the workout session.
After that, followed other players to the Gym to workout. Working out in the gym was tough since i don't always go to the gym, can really feel how weak my arm muscles are.
The coaches and the players are really helpful and hilarious. I can really feel the spirit of training harder and even eager to go further.
I should go more for the workout session.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Stay on track.
After going through the second session of training, i was asked by the Head Coach about myself.
He then talked to me for a short moment, asking me when i want to train and so on. After finish talking, he told me this
"Ok, remember to call me one day before training, you now train with the boys, better for you."
After saying that, then i realised i was actually accepted into the Elite Team. WOW....
I'm really grateful that i have this opportunity to get into the team, i will appreciate it and do better. No matter how tough and hard it will be, no matter how harsh they scold me, I will stick to it and hold onto it.
Die also have to hang on!
He then talked to me for a short moment, asking me when i want to train and so on. After finish talking, he told me this
"Ok, remember to call me one day before training, you now train with the boys, better for you."
After saying that, then i realised i was actually accepted into the Elite Team. WOW....
I'm really grateful that i have this opportunity to get into the team, i will appreciate it and do better. No matter how tough and hard it will be, no matter how harsh they scold me, I will stick to it and hold onto it.
Die also have to hang on!
Sunday, January 9, 2011
New Year New Hope
I didn't join the USJ tournament due to certain reasons, and i wasn't really ready for it yet, i'm not fit at all, didn't attend training.
Anyways, i have decided to move on by switching to a better training academy. I know leaving like that without saying goodbye is no good, but to avoid any misunderstanding, i just did so.
OK, so now i have decided to change to this training academy, but the coach requires me to go through a trial to see my standard and how i fair, mainly is because the morning training session consist of State Players and even higher level players.
Knowing this, i know this training will be tough. Let's say i managed to get in and stay in the morning session, can i withstand the intensity of their training? Can i hang in there? Can i really match those state players? Can i reach their levels?
Many thoughts appeared in my mind when i think further and even deeper.
At the moment, what i want to do is to do my best during the trial to impress the coach. Whether did it impress him all depends to his decision.
It will be tough as heard from my friends, but i shall not fear and hang onto it. Stay strong Zhi Wei!
Anyways, i have decided to move on by switching to a better training academy. I know leaving like that without saying goodbye is no good, but to avoid any misunderstanding, i just did so.
OK, so now i have decided to change to this training academy, but the coach requires me to go through a trial to see my standard and how i fair, mainly is because the morning training session consist of State Players and even higher level players.
Knowing this, i know this training will be tough. Let's say i managed to get in and stay in the morning session, can i withstand the intensity of their training? Can i hang in there? Can i really match those state players? Can i reach their levels?
Many thoughts appeared in my mind when i think further and even deeper.
At the moment, what i want to do is to do my best during the trial to impress the coach. Whether did it impress him all depends to his decision.
It will be tough as heard from my friends, but i shall not fear and hang onto it. Stay strong Zhi Wei!
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