I'll just have to prove this wrong.



Why i cant exceed myself?



This has been roaming in my mind, questioning myself...



The key to the answer?



Still searching....but i will prove you guys out there wrong

Friendly Match Team Event (Team Alpha vs Team EE4ever)

Wasn't a great match for me as 2nd singles. Didn't perform as wanted and got shocked, was a tough battle till both sides also faced a brain stuck.




Yet, wasn't satisfied of it.




Anyways, here are the score for the event:

Andy vs Jian Wei
21-14, 14-21, 21-19 (won by Andy)


Soon Ong & Teck Lee vs Alex & Zac
21-5, 21-11 (won by Soon Ong and Teck Lee)


Zhi Wei vs Zhi Yang
21-18, 18-21, 22-20 (won by Zhi Wei)


Henry & Gabriel vs Desmond & Jian Wei
15-21, 21-10, 21-18 (won by Henry and Gabriel)


Benedict vs Xiu Jie
11-21, 20-22 (won by Xiu Jie)


Overall score for the team : 4 - 1 (victorious)



After looking at the score, i just felt not great. =(

Why can't I remain consistent?



Why inconsistency always look for me...?



Why me?

After working so hard and repeating the same routine everyday by increasing it's intensity,



Do you think the hard work will pay off?

Consistency

I've been facing the same old problem over and over again. Sometimes i can give out my best during training and also during game matches, but sometimes i just can't bring out the "me" in myself.



Been thinking how to overcome that, but somehow, it's just working partially. If my consistency isn't consistent, how am i going to improve?



I think consistency is affected by mental too, besides being physically fit.



During shuttle drills, i was able to put in my consistency and able to put my best at the frontline, but when it comes to 2on1 just now, i wasn't able to keep up the speed i have. At first i was able to play at my speed and controlled my opponent under my tempo, but after that i suffered a backdown and they managed to take down the 2nd set.




During the final set only i was able to clinch back my victory. I was thinking over and over again, how do i keep up my consistency?



And i'm very unsure whether am i moving up or falling backwards? Am i improving?



I just wish i can know whether i am improving or not, because there isn't much time left for me. Just 1 more year(excluding this year) for me to improve to my maximum level.



Hoping 2010 can give me a drastic improvement i want.

First Day of Chinese New year

First Day of Chinese New Year isn't that prosperous or auspicious to me...



Let me list them....



A word by her saying "Did i gave u false hope?"



Secondly, got involved with an accident that cost me to compensate RM400 to him (mainly happened because of case 1)



Third, a freaky incident where i juz open a normal bottle cap and i cut my own finger? LOL



What a Chinese New Year for me. CRAPS.

Stringless racquets

Just couldn't believe i broke 2 racquet strings in 1 training. LOL