Panic

Match against Cedric:

21-13, 15-21, 19-21 [LOST]

Duration: 1:00 hour



It was so tough playing against him. He just somehow able to affectd o my mentality with just a few Yells and self encouragement. I told myself to calm down so i won't get affected by him, but seems like nothing worked.



In the first game, i started off not so well at the first half, i was still trying to find my own form, then i tried to up my speed and intercept his shots, fortunately it worked and i managed to pull the gap and raced to 21point.



Second set was slightly different this time. Made some simple mistakes and he managed to take the lead and made the gap huge. I try so hard to close the gap, but it was just so hard and i was also desperate of getting easy points, thus making huge mistakes and they were just so SIMPLE...in the end, the second set was claimed by Cedric.



The third set was all about mental game, see who is able to hang on till the last point and whoever makes mistake in the rally. It was really tough when he was leading 12-6, and in my mind i was going to give up, but suddenly i managed to take a few points back, so i decided not to give up at the point where the score was 14-18, and i tried working hard and fought the way till the score was 18-20. I took a deep breath, trying to get at least a few points of hope, and i managed to get it and just one more point, i'll make it a deuce.



The final point, my heart beating fast, my eyes opened wide, i started anticipating and predict what will he do, so i chose to do a flick serve, unfortunately he read my shot and he did a half smash down my forehand side line. I tried retrieving the smash but the moment my racquet touched my the shuttle, it hit the frame and deflected out.



The moment when the shuttle deflected out, i kneeled down on the court, looking at the green surface, blaming myself why i couldn't take that shot. It was just so denying to me, but then it's all over. I stood up and walked over to my opponent, giving him a smile and shook his hand.



It was closer this time, as compared to previous matches. Just made too many ambitious shots and i need to learn to be more focused and calm. Need more words of encouragement!



College closed tournament coming up! Gotta really perform!

R.I.P my friend and brother of mine.

A tragic incident happened in my house, one of our family member, Yuan Yuan passed away. Eventhough he's a dog, but we treat it as a family.



It's hard for me to accept at the moment, but i have to stay strong.



It's really sad that he's gone. Normally with him around, the house will be filled with laughter and you can feel the joy in the house.



We will always love you and remember you forever.



Rest in Peace, my friend and brother of mine. R.I.P

Just to let it out.

I just don't understand myself. When i play against faster players, I can put up my pace and try to match up with them, but when playing against player of the same speed and pace, i seem to slow down slightly, relax and then got controlled by the opponent.



It's my mindset that's playing me around. I feel crap, feeling really crap. Training so hard on movement and speed on court most of the time, why do i still end up getting controlled by a player of same pace? Shouldn't i be able to Put Up the Pace and then control him instead?



It's strange...



I'm not aiming for streaks, but i'm aiming to beat the player more consistently. If I still lose to the player frequently, then what's training for? What's all this i'm doing? Why play badminton?



Probably i'm just thinking too much...



I'm still not strong enough, i can only prove myself stronger when i beat them more consistently...



"Never let failure defeat you, Stand up and counter them"