Believe in Yourself !!!

August.

2011-08-23T22:43:00.000-07:00

Classes resumed as usual, been getting busier nowadays, since it's the last day of the semester. Stressful days, where i can't even get to go training or even find a way to improve myself.

When it was sem break back then, training was good, could just feel the effect, but once it's over, it's just so uneasy. I used to wake up in the morning, going to the court or the gym, but that day, the first day, the first thing i woke up is to attend classes. It's just so different.

My work is still as usual, didn't affect it much (fortunately, or else how to earn money =.="). Still finding a way how to get back to my best condition and top form....

Now there are 2 paths set ahead of me, to go left....or right....

July 23rd

2011-07-23T09:27:00.000-07:00

It was great having you along and thank you for the ticket to the concert. Really appreciate it :)

Eventhough i get to go to the concert, it wouldn't be great or fantastic without you around. With your presence, it just feels Awesome!

Now the world is filled with colours with you around :)

Positive

2011-07-08T04:21:00.000-07:00

Now that some said i improved, i do feel happy and satisfied, but somehow i try to tell myself not to get carried away by such praise or compliment, because i'm afraid that if i listen to it, i may get myself indulged in it and then my commitment and focus will be distracted.

I tried to tell myself though i see some bits of it, but the bright light is still far away from my reach. My hands stretched out at most to grab it but still out of reach. There's still a lot for me to work on.

Like today's match, i managed to play what i want to play, just that i made a few careless mistakes, some that shouldn't be done. I was confident that i could take my opponent down with my form today, but mistakes just did not make my day.

Eventhough i lost, but i told myself, "This is a good try men! Keep it up!" so that i can maintain my positive energy.

Stay Positive!

1st of July

2011-07-01T03:53:00.000-07:00

June already ended, now it's 1st of July. I wonder have i made any improvement throughout the month of June? Did i manage to do what i want? I don't know...

Since July is the last month i can train full time before my semester resumes, I just hope i can give my all and train harder than previously in June. I need to make results in tournament.

Let's just hope things will go along well...

Fear.

2011-06-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

When i play against my opponent, i will tend to think a lot such as thinking where my opponent will place the shuttle and this causes me to have Fear inside me, fearing that i may get trapped by my opponent.

I need to play without fearing where my opponent will place the shuttle. As long as i'm ready, the fear will not be able to threathen me when i'm on court.

Somehow, this fear remains in me, it just can't get off me....

Fear...please leave me so that i will be brave enough to play it down!

Training

2011-05-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

Training nowadays is tiring for me, but i don't mind going through the tiring training and getting those muscle ache, as long as it pays off, I will train hard!

Stay focused and determined to reach my target.

After Final Exams

2011-05-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

My final exams are finally over, after 3 weeks going crazy and hardcore for it. Been off from badminton during that time too. Life that time was really like a colourless, just so horrible, but at least now i can get back on court and enjoy again.

Can't wait to get back to training again, i miss all my friends there, the coaches and also the training atmosphere. I want to work hard again, get better and improve myself from the current now, which is not even stable when i go for tournaments, feels horribly bad.

Been facing some hard time with my parents, as they always ask me to go and work at the office like doing works related to my course. I really don't want to waste my semester break on that. I rather go and train hard and full time, at least i won't regret that i did not try. Anyways, after i graduate, i won't be able to train like this anymore, that time i will be working fully.

In life, how many 10 years do we have? How many things can we do during our youth? I don't want to let my youth just pass like this. I want to do something meaningful, achieve something before my youth ends.

To Full Time training! I must~! Train hard, go for tournaments and achieve results. That's how should things be done!

Sg.Buloh Tournament

2011-04-30T09:15:00.001-07:00

Guess this was really a bad outing for me too. Craps. Participated in Singles, Doubles and Mixed Doubles. It's just horrible when what you wanted in your way didn't happen as you wanted.

My singles was a very disappointing match to me. My opponent was someone that i'm assured that i can have a chance to win. Based on his strokes, i have a plan in my mind how to play against him.

The game starts! He began to serve, i cleared to his overhead and he instantly gave me a half smash at my forehand side. I was shocked by that, but wasn't afraid of him. I continued to play against him, without fearing him, trying to reach for every shots he place. Somehow, things didn't went along well...

I tried to play the game i planned, but that didn't happen. He kept attacking me, i kept defending, i tried to play the net, but he played back the net instead, causing me to lift for him. That gave him the advantage of attacking me, which makes me vulnerable. I was clueless, playing blindly and blur during the first half of the match. I was just....totally lost.

The game came to 15-6, where it goes into the interval. Both me and my opponent changed sides. During the interval, i tried to calm myself and tell myself not to think so much and just play. When the game resumed, i tried to be more offensive. My offensive play and smashes managed to help me get back some points. I managed to pull the gap closer and trail the scoreline.

When the score was at 17-28, when my opponent was holding the service, my left thigh muscle suddenly felt pain. It feels like the muscle is pulling. I had no choice and walked aside to my bag and stood there. I tried to continue playing, but the pain was excruciating. I told the umpire to give me a break and he allowed me. Without wasting time, i pulled open the zip of my bag and took out the counterpain, sprayed it on my thigh, but to no avail, it didn't help.

Finally, i couldn't take the pain and called it off. I gave the walkover to my opponent, and there goes my first round. I guess this tournament wasn't really good for me.

What happen has happened. Only thing i can do now is Look Forward, Don't Look Back Anymore.

Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament

2011-03-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

It was a fine Saturday morning, i woke up at 6:40am and then get brushed up and pack up my badminton bag. It was just great when i feel confident. Had my breakfast and then headed to Andy's place to pick him up.

After picking up Andy, we took about 5 minutes to reach the tournament venue. There were some players already warming up and getting ready. Meanwhile, i was chatting with my bunch of friends and laughing around. Hehe.

I waited for my turn, did some stretching and then had some strokes with my friend. My match was being announced and there i go. I went over to the court where the match will be held.

I stroked with my opponent, trying to read his strokes and his ability. He seems good to me, quite equal. Then, the match begins. It was a 30 point 1 game for the first round, so it's a fast kill game i have to play.

My opponent chose the court and i took the service. The match begins and i served the shuttle. My opponent scored the first point. After the first point, i took the initiative to win more points and i did managed to do so, leading 8-5. My confidence grew and i was able to play and give out the game i usually play, and managed to get some cheap points from his mistake. The game then went into the interval, with me leading 15-10.

During the interval, i stood there wiping my sweat with my towel, telling myself, "I can do it! Just maintain the game like this."

After the interval, the game continued. I was playing the usual game of mine, but my opponent did manage to score some points too. The game went on and the score was 25-20, with me leading ahead of him.

All of a sudden, my concentration and focus lapsed. My mind kept telling me to find "shortcuts" in the game, and i kept trying. My mistakes and flaws appeared. My opponent took advantage of that and caught up with me. Eventually, he came back level and the score was 25-25.

My heart starts to beat faster, i felt pressured when he caught up. Then i took back a point, leading 26-25, but it didn't boost my confidence. Instead, my opponent became more confident, add in more attacks and he came back 28-26, taking the lead.

I took all kinds of ways to try to take back the lead, fighting hard, reaching out for every shot he place and trying to create an opportunity. Fortunately, i got back a few points and the score was 28-28. I stood still, holding the shuttlecock in my hand, trying to change the fate of mine, but then i made a simple mistake and there goes my 1 point to him, allowing him to lead 29-28.

It was the crucial moment of the match. I tried to hang on there, and thought of doing an overhead smash to get back the point. My opponent hold the shuttlecock, he gave a high service and immediately i reversed backwards quickly and jump! My hands swing quickly and contacted with the shuttle.

My smash didn't make it, it hit the net. The moment i saw my smash went into the net, i looked up at the ceiling of the hall, and looked at my opponent. My opponent stared at me and yelled out loudly at me and i went over and shook his hands. Just 2 points the difference, but it made a huge difference.

So close yet so far...some didn't have to work hard and they managed to get into the semi finals, while i trained so hard, putting every drop of my sweat into training, but ended up bowing out in the early rounds.

It's just so denying....

If i managed to get into the semi finals, then things will probably different...

Training

2011-03-22T23:35:00.000-07:00

Been putting in a lot of effort in training, lots of assignments in the way too.

Assignments, training, assignments, training....

Have to hold on all the way.

Taylor's closed coming this saturday, condition not so good, but hope i can give my best in there.

Tournaments

2011-03-20T08:19:00.001-07:00

The two tournaments i participated wasn't a very good outing for me.

The first tournament, Impian7 Doubles Tournament, 2 hours before match i suffered from fever and had to play through the match fever. Ended up losing in the first round.

The second tournament was JJB tournament at Wangsa Maju. I couldn't adjust myself towards the shuttle and my strokes. That cost a lot to me and ended up getting an early first round exit.

Next will be Taylors Closed Badminton Tournament. Can i do it?

Need to be on form during tournament la~

Panic

2011-02-16T01:37:00.000-08:00

Match against Cedric:

21-13, 15-21, 19-21 [LOST]

Duration: 1:00 hour

It was so tough playing against him. He just somehow able to affectd o my mentality with just a few Yells and self encouragement. I told myself to calm down so i won't get affected by him, but seems like nothing worked.

In the first game, i started off not so well at the first half, i was still trying to find my own form, then i tried to up my speed and intercept his shots, fortunately it worked and i managed to pull the gap and raced to 21point.

Second set was slightly different this time. Made some simple mistakes and he managed to take the lead and made the gap huge. I try so hard to close the gap, but it was just so hard and i was also desperate of getting easy points, thus making huge mistakes and they were just so SIMPLE...in the end, the second set was claimed by Cedric.

The third set was all about mental game, see who is able to hang on till the last point and whoever makes mistake in the rally. It was really tough when he was leading 12-6, and in my mind i was going to give up, but suddenly i managed to take a few points back, so i decided not to give up at the point where the score was 14-18, and i tried working hard and fought the way till the score was 18-20. I took a deep breath, trying to get at least a few points of hope, and i managed to get it and just one more point, i'll make it a deuce.

The final point, my heart beating fast, my eyes opened wide, i started anticipating and predict what will he do, so i chose to do a flick serve, unfortunately he read my shot and he did a half smash down my forehand side line. I tried retrieving the smash but the moment my racquet touched my the shuttle, it hit the frame and deflected out.

The moment when the shuttle deflected out, i kneeled down on the court, looking at the green surface, blaming myself why i couldn't take that shot. It was just so denying to me, but then it's all over. I stood up and walked over to my opponent, giving him a smile and shook his hand.

It was closer this time, as compared to previous matches. Just made too many ambitious shots and i need to learn to be more focused and calm. Need more words of encouragement!

College closed tournament coming up! Gotta really perform!

R.I.P my friend and brother of mine.

2011-02-13T06:25:00.000-08:00

A tragic incident happened in my house, one of our family member, Yuan Yuan passed away. Eventhough he's a dog, but we treat it as a family.

It's hard for me to accept at the moment, but i have to stay strong.

It's really sad that he's gone. Normally with him around, the house will be filled with laughter and you can feel the joy in the house.

We will always love you and remember you forever.

Rest in Peace, my friend and brother of mine. R.I.P

Just to let it out.

2011-02-05T20:32:00.001-08:00

I just don't understand myself. When i play against faster players, I can put up my pace and try to match up with them, but when playing against player of the same speed and pace, i seem to slow down slightly, relax and then got controlled by the opponent.

It's my mindset that's playing me around. I feel crap, feeling really crap. Training so hard on movement and speed on court most of the time, why do i still end up getting controlled by a player of same pace? Shouldn't i be able to Put Up the Pace and then control him instead?

It's strange...

I'm not aiming for streaks, but i'm aiming to beat the player more consistently. If I still lose to the player frequently, then what's training for? What's all this i'm doing? Why play badminton?

Probably i'm just thinking too much...

I'm still not strong enough, i can only prove myself stronger when i beat them more consistently...

"Never let failure defeat you, Stand up and counter them"

Viral infection

2011-01-26T03:54:00.000-08:00

Once again, i got infected with viral infection in the big intestine, which indirectly similar to food poisoning, but just mild one.

Wanted to go training today, but seems like it's no good, so i didn't go for my training. Felt like i missed out a lot by not attending training today. Many upcoming events for me but then doctor told me to eat plain food and liquid food for 2 to 3 days, crap eh?

I need to wait for it to recover now, but then there's a very important match on Friday and how i wish i can play, but seems like it's not helping. I want to recover and play badminton again.

Please, i hope for miracle now, to recover faster...

Training

2011-01-17T05:01:00.001-08:00

Went for training session this morning, was really what they called TRAINING. Did a lot of drills and non-stop for 2 hours.

After that, followed other players to the Gym to workout. Working out in the gym was tough since i don't always go to the gym, can really feel how weak my arm muscles are.

The coaches and the players are really helpful and hilarious. I can really feel the spirit of training harder and even eager to go further.

I should go more for the workout session.

Stay on track.

2011-01-15T07:17:00.000-08:00

After going through the second session of training, i was asked by the Head Coach about myself.

He then talked to me for a short moment, asking me when i want to train and so on. After finish talking, he told me this

"Ok, remember to call me one day before training, you now train with the boys, better for you."

After saying that, then i realised i was actually accepted into the Elite Team. WOW....

I'm really grateful that i have this opportunity to get into the team, i will appreciate it and do better. No matter how tough and hard it will be, no matter how harsh they scold me, I will stick to it and hold onto it.

Die also have to hang on!

New Year New Hope

2011-01-09T04:14:00.000-08:00

I didn't join the USJ tournament due to certain reasons, and i wasn't really ready for it yet, i'm not fit at all, didn't attend training.

Anyways, i have decided to move on by switching to a better training academy. I know leaving like that without saying goodbye is no good, but to avoid any misunderstanding, i just did so.

OK, so now i have decided to change to this training academy, but the coach requires me to go through a trial to see my standard and how i fair, mainly is because the morning training session consist of State Players and even higher level players.

Knowing this, i know this training will be tough. Let's say i managed to get in and stay in the morning session, can i withstand the intensity of their training? Can i hang in there? Can i really match those state players? Can i reach their levels?

Many thoughts appeared in my mind when i think further and even deeper.

At the moment, what i want to do is to do my best during the trial to impress the coach. Whether did it impress him all depends to his decision.

It will be tough as heard from my friends, but i shall not fear and hang onto it. Stay strong Zhi Wei!

Food Poisoning

2010-12-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

Few days back ago, which is Monday, i went to Tenji for Japanese Buffet. Unfortunately, i think i took too much sashimi and probably due to the inhygenic handling of the sashimi, i got food poisoning.

The next day, i vomitted and it was pretty bad. Had to go and check up with the doctor. Fortunately, thanks to my parents support, i was able to stand back up and fight against this challenge.

Now, since i have recovered, it is time for me to resume my training and get better.

Coming up will be USJ tournament!

Gotta work for it, try to at least break the first round curse.

Priceless Training =)

2010-11-08T00:01:00.000-08:00

What a training that day at my working place. It was on a Friday morning when i asked my boss whether i can dropby for a training session. Coincidently that Friday is Deepavali and yet we are training, so it was somehow special.

That day, my boss and his other friends(which are also my bosses) came for training. They had sparring session and it was a great to watch. After their sparring session, my boss gave me some training to do.

Meanwhile doing training, one of my boss(Choong Hann) came over and gave me some advice. I would say it was great as he corrected most of the way i execute my dropshots.

Well, i would say it's great to have him to guide me......

What a day for training, Priceless...

ANyways, finals coming up. Will update it again sooner.

Busy

2010-10-27T10:56:00.000-07:00

Been quite busy lately, most of the time spent on doing assignments instead of training hard in badminton.

Just resumed training few days ago after a 3-week rest from my ribs injury, was quite a freaky accident that caused the injury, fortunately it was just minor. =)

Busy working too, i need to earn money for a living, trying to be more independent, glad that i have such good bosses, another thing to be glad about. =D

As for relationship, i guess i'm still the same, not much improvement either, just hoping that she will change her thoughts and feelings towards me.

Will be updating slow, since i'm busy...will get back to blogging once i'm free again.

Signing off to all readers.

Do or Die

2010-08-24T21:36:00.000-07:00

Things just come and go...

It is now august already, yet i wasn't able to keep up the requirements.

Well....

Guess i gotta just work harder to get where i want to be...

Next year will be my last year....

Do or Die

Discipline

2010-08-17T18:45:00.000-07:00

What i'm dealing now is the toughest of all, Discipline.

To wake up early every morning for jogging and doing the same thing over and over again, can anyone out there really repeat the same routine everyday?

This is where discipline comes in, where you will not give up doing or even say it's boring or whatsoever.

Determination and Hardwork also comes in that case.

Just like today, i didn't manage to go for my training because i wasn't able to wake up, and that has shown that i'm still lacking of the quality in my disciplines.

To be good, we must first have disciplines, then we will be able to excel in other parts of what you pursue.

Discipline, Discipline, Discipline....

Focus

2010-07-16T01:09:00.001-07:00

It is really hard for me to focus, Coach always tell me to focus in the match/game, but somehow my mind tends to float away and then just 3 seconds only, i've lost my momentum and rhythm and made my mistake.

My mind is also slow, tends to respond slower than my legs and hands. Gotta work on it too.

Now most importantly before the next tournament, i gotta work on my focus and my thinking.

Sick

2010-06-28T18:39:00.000-07:00

I'm now down with serious cough and flu, even there's blood in it.

I thought this week i can push myself more in badminton, but sadly obstacles do happen, such as this.

Just hope to recover A.S.A.P, then prepare for the next tournament, which is next Saturday.

Myself

2010-05-30T01:39:00.000-07:00

I wonder what's with myself lately...

I can't seem to find the right person for myself...

The girls don't like me back, i don't force them....fine...

Sometimes, i end up walking alone in a happening street alone, while seeing others with their loved ones and partner cherishing their moments together.

On the other side,

I've been working more than usual on my badminton...

Yet things didn't show out well....

My performance and form is just like a flicking light bulb...

It just doesn't show my true ability yet..

I have not get my dynamic speed and attacking yet...

How am i going to move on to the next level?

So many things to worried and frustrate on...What a Life

Die Die Die

2010-05-23T23:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday kena diao by coach (acceptable)

Today gonna kena diao by mum....(see dead body hanging outside the house)

Die Die Die....

T_T

2010-05-04T09:03:00.001-07:00

When the person starts from scratch, the person will always remember you.

But when the person achieved fame, the person forgets the past.

So simple, it's human nature.

I just want to cry out

2010-05-01T02:04:00.000-07:00

After losing to my opponent 21-23. I just felt like crying out.

He's a level lower, and yet i can let him drag me to deuce.

When i was down 12-18, i struggled to stay on and i managed to catch up till 20-20.

After a deuce, we both got 21-21.

I was desperate and did an overhead jump smash off-balance. The smash didnt pass and hit the net.

The final point was my mistake and i lost out.

It was just 2 points, if i didn't lift it out, probably i could stay in the game and won it.

2010-04-27T19:18:00.000-07:00

Just 3 more days and it's gonna begin...

Heart beating fast...

Trying to bring the best out of myself.

Stay positive and be confident =)

2010-04-23T20:04:00.001-07:00

Had a great game with Cedric yesterday, eventhough i lost 19-21, 7-21. At least i know where i stand.

Now i got another BIG problem!

2 Tournaments up ahead, but on the same date, and the prob is, it clashes with one another....

Tell me...

Now how shall i choose?

Match against FU Chih

2010-04-22T04:20:00.000-07:00

A match against Fu Chih today since Coach Andrew (Fu Chih's coach) asked him to spar against me.

I started off badly as i put too much pressure on myself during the game. The first game did not go well and i made many simple mistakes that had myself killed. First game losing out 16-21.

When the second game started, was given some advice by Coach Andrew and played much better than first game, yet unresponsive at the front of the net due to the aching in the thigh resulting from yesterday's training. Somehow, managed to clinch the second game 21-12.

The 3rd game was supposed to be crucial, but it was a one way traffic for me from 0-0 to 11-0, then i made a mistake and there, Fu Chih managed to get 5 points before the game was being closed up. The 3rd game ended with the score: 21-5.

I shall need to work more on my singles, especially on anticipation, change in pace in footwork, explosive power in footwork and also....less mistakes Please.

Overall score: 16-21, 21-12, 21-5

Fire

2010-04-19T23:21:00.001-07:00

Where is the "fire" in me? The "fire" that pushes me to play at 100% with my opponent, the "fire" that give me the brilliance of outplaying my opponent, the "fire" that gives me the courage of challenging opponents...

But what happened? The "fire" seemed to have been extinguished by something. Lately i just couldn't push myself to give my 100% i used to be able to. Eventhough i am hardworking during training, but it just doesn't apply to my game when i play against my opponent.

Light up the"fire" for me. Rekindle my spirit and motivation again.

2010-04-18T06:37:00.000-07:00

Lost the match to Andy once more, losing 18-21, 16-21

Made many mistakes such as hitting the shuttle out, didn't take enough time to decide what shot to put in, went in too fast.

Shot at net, pretty crucial part, always missed that, and what i always did not expect is the crosscourt drop, which is how he scores. Have to take note of these few points.

There's still time to make changes before it's too late....

When the real match comes, no mercy

!@#$%^&*()

2010-04-15T05:19:00.000-07:00

Want to smash, but smash net or float, and powerless....

Want to drop, but drop at the net....

Want to net, but net shot couldn't pass over....

Want to lift, lift half court...

Where did all my power go?

Better get some good rest tonight, tomorrow is going to be another day

Play for the Day

2010-04-14T05:34:00.000-07:00

What a day i can say, training in the morning and playing at Neway (Taylor's College) badminton club in the evening...Fuuuuuhhhhh

After all, played doubles in the club, as usual...

Andy did not perform very well though (due to his MS), just hope he's gonna buck up for what he had made in these past few days.

As for myself, sometimes steady sometimes off, this has still been persisting me lately. Troublesome one >.<

Played with many kinds of player today, players from Pahang, Selangor and Melaka. All are great players. *applause*

Learned a lot from them today, seeing the way they play, the speed, strategy, stroke, power, precision.

Just few more weeks left, gotta do something to bring ourselves up again.

"Gotta buck up my Singles and Doubles, improve on the reaction"

"Andy, don't repeat the same mistake again, play at 100%, eventhough it's game, when we are on court, there's no friendship to be talked about."

Cruelty

2010-04-11T02:26:00.000-07:00

While i was watching a TV program introducing the famous and well known food in the world, i suddenly realised that how human became this cruel.

According to the program i was watching, the reason why they want the texture of the pork to taste good is by zapping the pig when it is going to sleep, since the pig loves to sleep a lot. When i heard this statement told by the japanese chef, i was shocked to hear this.

Like the Goose, to obtain a delicious goose liver, human would use a pipe to just keep feeding food into the trapped goose inside the cage to just obtain a goose liver. Just because of a goose liver and we have to use such cruel steps to achieve what we want? Look at ourselves, we have now became the monsters to animals.

China is also very famous for being cruel when it comes to their cuisine, especially the fish. In order to create the best dish for fish, they have to take the fish from the water alive, immediately cut it's stomach, removing it's internal organs, dip into powder and lastly deep-frying the fish in the hot boiling oil. When the fish is boiled in the hot oil, you can see the fish still breathing and struggling. When the dish is served, you can still see the fish mouth opening and closing gushing for air.

Can you imagine we, Human have became so cruel until such extent, in order to obtain what we seek for, we can use any methods regardless how cruel it is to obtain it. This is just sometimes....making me feel sick....making me feel sorry.....making me feeling guilty and also making me like a worthless being.

Humans started from the ancient times where humans still haven't begin civilization. At that time, human hunt down animal for food to survive. They did not seek for anything special in their food. But as civilization goes on and continue, the esteem of human increases and then human tend to try all sorts of methods to make their food interesting and delicious.

Thinking of which, try to imagine if you are the animal and being tortured like this, imagine yourself as the goose, imagine yourself as the pig, imagine yourself as the fish. How would you feel?

Answer? Pretty simple....SUFFERING.

Humans are just way too selfish when going through civilization.

This is a video of it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFelfDbkzm4

Finally...

2010-04-07T20:41:00.000-07:00

Finally, after losing out to my compatriot Andy for so many times, i managed to secure a winning point back from him.

It was tough, yet exciting. Slowly get back the form i want.

Will work harder from now on!

Score: 21-18, 21-19

Challenger Tourrnament@Kepong

2010-04-06T20:06:00.000-07:00

Once again, i will be joining the Challenger Tournament, but this time....at Kepong.

This time, i will be partnering a new partner, Andy.

For those interested to join the tournament, here's the details and entry form.

Link: http://www.thechallenger.com.my/

Alright. Just 3 more weeks to work on it.

1st of May is the tournament!

2010-03-24T08:00:00.001-07:00

I'll just have to prove this wrong.

Why i cant exceed myself?

This has been roaming in my mind, questioning myself...

The key to the answer?

Still searching....but i will prove you guys out there wrong

Friendly Match Team Event (Team Alpha vs Team EE4ever)

2010-03-13T02:38:00.000-08:00

Wasn't a great match for me as 2nd singles. Didn't perform as wanted and got shocked, was a tough battle till both sides also faced a brain stuck.

Yet, wasn't satisfied of it.

Anyways, here are the score for the event:

Andy vs Jian Wei
21-14, 14-21, 21-19 (won by Andy)

Soon Ong & Teck Lee vs Alex & Zac
21-5, 21-11 (won by Soon Ong and Teck Lee)

Zhi Wei vs Zhi Yang
21-18, 18-21, 22-20 (won by Zhi Wei)

Henry & Gabriel vs Desmond & Jian Wei
15-21, 21-10, 21-18 (won by Henry and Gabriel)

Benedict vs Xiu Jie
11-21, 20-22 (won by Xiu Jie)

Overall score for the team : 4 - 1 (victorious)

After looking at the score, i just felt not great. =(

2010-03-09T07:06:00.000-08:00

Why can't I remain consistent?

Why inconsistency always look for me...?

Why me?

2010-02-22T07:49:00.000-08:00

After working so hard and repeating the same routine everyday by increasing it's intensity,

Do you think the hard work will pay off?

Consistency

2010-02-16T22:42:00.000-08:00

I've been facing the same old problem over and over again. Sometimes i can give out my best during training and also during game matches, but sometimes i just can't bring out the "me" in myself.

Been thinking how to overcome that, but somehow, it's just working partially. If my consistency isn't consistent, how am i going to improve?

I think consistency is affected by mental too, besides being physically fit.

During shuttle drills, i was able to put in my consistency and able to put my best at the frontline, but when it comes to 2on1 just now, i wasn't able to keep up the speed i have. At first i was able to play at my speed and controlled my opponent under my tempo, but after that i suffered a backdown and they managed to take down the 2nd set.

During the final set only i was able to clinch back my victory. I was thinking over and over again, how do i keep up my consistency?

And i'm very unsure whether am i moving up or falling backwards? Am i improving?

I just wish i can know whether i am improving or not, because there isn't much time left for me. Just 1 more year(excluding this year) for me to improve to my maximum level.

Hoping 2010 can give me a drastic improvement i want.

First Day of Chinese New year

2010-02-14T05:36:00.000-08:00

First Day of Chinese New Year isn't that prosperous or auspicious to me...

Let me list them....

A word by her saying "Did i gave u false hope?"

Secondly, got involved with an accident that cost me to compensate RM400 to him (mainly happened because of case 1)

Third, a freaky incident where i juz open a normal bottle cap and i cut my own finger? LOL

What a Chinese New Year for me. CRAPS.

Stringless racquets

2010-02-05T03:10:00.000-08:00

Just couldn't believe i broke 2 racquet strings in 1 training. LOL

Mini Tournament

2010-01-28T05:17:00.000-08:00

Today's mini tournament was a great one, eventhough i didn't manage to perform well. My footwork wasn't really smooth and it was very glitchy. Kinda off form today, loads of shots taken at the top of my head, instead of front, but still managed to take 1 game down, opponent wasn't in good state either.

Need to live up my Form i used to have.

Let's not waste much time, here's the latest results:

First Round:

Soon vs Zhi Wei (21-18, 14-21, 21-12)

Fu Chih vs Andy (14-21, 9-21)

Special Round:

Soon vs Henry (21-8, 21-14)

Finals:

Andy vs Soon (22-24, 10-21)

That's the results! There will be another Mini Tournament coming up, but Doubles instead of Singles.

2010-01-26T01:48:00.000-08:00

I don't understand why you just kind of ignore me,

I kept reflecting what i did that day and was trying to find where i went wrong,

If there's anything i seriously offended or "too much",

I'm really sorry and i apologize.

But girl, I just want to know what are you thinking at the moment?

Please indicate me,

I'm really lost now.

by:
-Lost Zhi Wei-

Mistakes

2010-01-22T19:32:00.001-08:00

I just did a very huge mistake in front of you, having bad eye sight, slow reflexes and bad hearing.

Sorry for being like that, i guess i was a bit tired yesterday.

Promised that it will never happen again.

Just for you.

-Untitled-

2010-01-05T02:32:00.000-08:00

I just want you to know that I'm always thinking of you no matter where i go and where i am.

Hope you will realise it one day.

And as i said,

I will wait for you.

Bad start for 2010

2010-01-03T02:32:00.000-08:00

What a bad start for me today.

Played worst badminton in this year. Need to change the fate of my badminton within this year.

This year will be a turning point for me.

I must CHANGE!

Unforgetable Memories

2010-01-02T17:35:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the Great Time and Company, Chloe =D

2010-01-01T02:06:00.001-08:00

The biggest enemy is yourself.

Merry Christmas

2009-12-24T05:28:00.000-08:00

I wish all readers of my blog a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all

&

A Happy New Year

Hot N' Cold

2009-12-18T18:49:00.000-08:00

Hey girl, why do you treat me like this?

Sometimes you treat me nicely, but sometimes it's just like so cold you know, just like a freezing Ice cube in the corner of the refrigerator.

Sometimes you can be with me just like a hot melted chocolate.

I want to know how you feel, I want to lend you a helping hand, I just want to be part of you.

Knowing this will not happen so fast, but at least, I want to try my best to get involved with you.

Girl,

Can you give me a chance to let me prove that I'm the guy worth waiting?

Soon to be back

2009-12-13T02:06:00.001-08:00

Latest updates:

New Vision badminton tournament coming up, from 2nd january to 3rd january 2010.

Should i join or not?

2009-12-12T06:26:00.000-08:00

Just came back from Melaka, what a great experience

Not provided that i added 2kg to myself XD

2009-12-10T08:27:00.000-08:00

Feel free to visit this site of my friends

http://amyjaredbrody.livejournal.com/

2009-12-09T04:11:00.000-08:00

Liking someone is really suffering...

Can be torturing....

Can also be painful...

Officially Missing you.

2009-12-08T15:30:00.001-08:00

Why do you have to lie to me?

Was it so good to tell lies?

2009-12-07T16:14:00.000-08:00

Doctor, can you tell me when will my wrist completely recover?

You told me only 2 weeks more than i can smash with full force, but 2 weeks already, i still can't use full force.

I want to resume training, next year i have to do extraordinary improvements already.

Please Doctor, hope you give me a good answer

Don't forget

2009-12-05T09:06:00.001-08:00

Don't forget about me, Forget about me when I really can't face you anymore.

Great Day

2009-12-04T06:19:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the Great time u spent with me, Chloe

Hope we can meet up again sometime =)

Selling Yonex Pants

2009-12-01T02:11:00.000-08:00

This is a yonex shorts i'm selling. I got it due to wrong size, cant wear it on and selling it now. The size is L size(but it is just like S). The model of the shorts is from Japan, not available in Malaysia.

Brand New in good condition.

Original Price Bought: RM 67

Current Price selling out: RM 50

Details of measurement:

Size:L160-165 /XL170 /2XL175 /3XL180 /4XL185
Waist:62-84/64-94/68-98/70-100/74-104
Length:42/45/47/49/51

If you are interested, please contact me at 017-8855602 or kokyee_tan@hotmail.com

2009-11-28T02:07:00.000-08:00

Been playing Badminton lately, followed doctor's advice and precautions, yet everytime after game there is a short moment of pain which last for few hours.

I really cant afford to have that pain, already used so much money on my medical fees.

C'mon wrist, just recover completely and don't create any pain anymore.

Holiday

2009-11-26T16:15:00.001-08:00

Time flies quickly and yet i still got so many things undone:

1) go out with friends and girls XD

2) Resume training, recover and push myself further

3) Work? I need cash

But this semester's holiday is really short...oh my...

2009-11-22T08:06:00.000-08:00

I know many of you out there talking about me, saying that "why that zhi wei train so long already but yet he never win any tournament before?"

I know that, in fact i won't blame you all, because that is the fact, and i have to admit training isn't easy either, Playing in a tournament is also a different story from training.

For those who encourage me and support me all these while, i appreciate and really want to Thank you all here, for those who said i never win any tournament before, it's ok, since i really didn't win any...

But i still got 2 more years left, and 2 year is to achieve the level i want to achieve, and December will be recovery session for my wrist, to get back my consistency. January will be the start of a new year and i shall give myself a try.

I will push myself further, regardless how tired and painful it will be.

2009-11-19T19:30:00.000-08:00

Just a few days not talking to each other and things changed so much.

I thought of you everyday, but you are just having fun out there.

I won't blame or mad at you for anything, and it's okay to have fun out there.

But i just want to say this,

"I really miss you a lot"

4th day: All over

2009-11-18T20:12:00.000-08:00

Finally, the battle is over, freedom has been achieved.

A sigh of Relief...

Wish you were here, miss you...

3rd day over, final day is tomorrow

2009-11-18T03:06:00.002-08:00

The final day is about to arrive tomorrow, but today's test was filled with pressure and a blind battle with Construction Law.

I went in calmly, but the moment i opened the question paper...oh my...freaks me out..

Tried my best to do what i know, that's all i can do.

The other 2 question? Whacked it..

Tomorrow is the last paper, just go all out, and then there goes HAPPY HOUR!

3rd day over, final day is tomorrow

2009-11-18T03:06:00.001-08:00

2nd Day over

2009-11-16T23:16:00.000-08:00

The 2nd day of Final exam has passed. Today's paper was Building Construction 1, a slightly challenging paper, but was able to handle it well. At first i saw the questions, they are very straightforward, but i forgotten some of the answers....Yeah...forgotten...

Anyways, not to say much, this paper was way better than the IQS paper yesterday. Yesterday was a nightmare. I even managed to walk out of the exam hall 3o minutes before the given time. Some of the questions i'm quite uncertain about it.

Tomorrow will be a tough battle against Construction Law, guess i have to put 120% on the notes once more and do the paper carefully. 120% men! ALL OUT!!!!

After Construction Law, things will be smooth, just like one way traffic =)

Exams Timetable:

Monday: IQS

Tuesday: Building Construction 1

Wednesday: Construction Law

Thursday: Building Service 1

1st Day over

2009-11-15T23:17:00.000-08:00

The first day of exam is finally over, but it was a bad headstart for me. My IQS was a nightmare for me.

It all started well when i was doing my Taking-Off list for Strip Foundation, but halfway doing i realised i left out some stuff and for IQS subject, you are not allowed to use blanko or whatsoever item to erase it, so i got no choice but to rewrite it again.

After that, in the Dimension Sheet section, i forgotten to insert some stuff into it and couldn't cancel it because there was too much i left out, and there goes another re-writing session and then i wasted so much time there.

When i arrived at the Pad Foundation section, i was only left with 1 hour minutes time. Looked through the question and then start doing it. When i was doing it, suddenly i wrote something wrong again, so i made a small crossout and continued my paper. Things got worse and i crossed out a lot. Decided to re-do the paper again and things got worse. After rewriting and i checked back, there's only 40 minutes left. I tried to speed up my work, but the maximum i could go is half of the Pad Foundation.

When i was about to continue, the invigilator announced Time is Up. I had to put down the pen with the unsatisfied heart of mine and just couldn't say a word the moment the examiner collected the answer papers. Seeing others able to accomplish their paper, I sat down at the chair realising that i can't do much.

I wanted to cry because i was so unsatisfied with my paper which i normally can do better than this. The feeling just make me feel that i'm such a useless guy.

Now that IQS has fallen badly, there are 3 subjects left, which are Building Construction 1, Construction Law and Building Services 1.

I cannot afford to fail my IQS. I cannot afford to fail...I CAN'T....

Here are the total marks for the paper IQS:

Strip Foundation - 30 marks

Pad Foundation - 50 marks

Calculate my scenario and you will know how bad is my situation.

Exams:

Monday: IQS

Tuesday: Building Construction 1

Wednesday: Construction Law

Thursday: Building Services 1

"I must not look back anymore, look forward and do the rest properly"

1 day left

2009-11-14T20:15:00.000-08:00

Today is the final day of preparation.

Here is the exam schedule of mine:

Mon: IQS (3 hour) - 9:30 a.m.

Tues: Building Construction 1 (2 hours) - 9:30 a.m.

Wed: Construction Law (2 hours) - 2:30 p.m.

Thurs: Building Services 1 (2 hours) - 9:30 a.m.

4 days straight. Shall PUSH THE LIMIT !

Construction Law

2009-11-13T02:51:00.000-08:00

The Law is killing me....

Ahhhhh....

So many things to read on it, Crazy Law...

Swear to destroy it once everything is over!

2009-11-11T19:08:00.000-08:00

Is this how it will be?

Teddy Chocolate Biscuits

2009-11-09T19:33:00.003-08:00

Those biscuits are hell men...

Just doesn't taste good at all, don't buy that =(

You'll regret...

Which should i buy?

2009-11-07T01:34:00.001-08:00

Which Should i Buy?

The China Badminton National Team Yellow in Beijing Olympic

OR

Yonex Badminton Wear(shirt + Short) Black 12027

Please Vote at the bottom right! TQ

Which should i buy?
	Beijing Olympic Set
	YONEX Badminton Wear ( shirt + short ) Black 12027

= see results =

2009-11-06T04:06:00.001-08:00

It seems like it's getting better, should have gone for consultation in the first place...

Anyways, hoping to get back on court soon!

Time to get back what i lost!

"Don't be sad alright? Things will be better tomorrow"

A visit to the Sport Doctor

2009-11-03T04:10:00.000-08:00

Had an appointment with the sports doctor today. Very nice doctor, explained my injuries in detail and did some treatment. Found the source and gave me some physio to do.

Here are some advices he gave me:

"If you want to play badminton or resume training, No problem....provided that you don't smash or lob"

"When you play tournament, you have to strap the athletic tape on your wrist"

"Follow the workout i give you and see you back on Friday"

This is my last alternative. Hope it works!

Argument

2009-10-30T19:22:00.000-07:00

Is there anything so nice to argue?

Why want to argue over such small matter?

Oh mum, come on...

To my beloved one

2009-10-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

Hey dear,

there is no need to worry,

things will always go fine,

have faith in yourself and things will go well.

No matter what happens to you,

I will always give you support,

And always believe in you =)

Guardian

2009-10-24T10:19:00.000-07:00

I wish i can stay up looking at you, guarding you, seeing you from far...

2009-10-21T06:03:00.001-07:00

I can only sit at the corner looking, unable to do anything.

2009-10-19T23:15:00.000-07:00

To trust him?

To give up?

To Continue?

Stranded in the middle of nowhere, left me alone standing there confused.

I'm starting to get tired of it already.

Trust

2009-10-19T07:11:00.001-07:00

I just lose trust to the people around me.

2009-10-17T05:59:00.000-07:00

Sitting by side of my window,

Looking out at my window,

I can see the round full moon filled together with the sparkling stars in the dark sky,

Wondering myself,

A feeling of missing you in my mind,

Your name is already carved into my heart,

On one lonely Saturday night,

Wishing that you could be here with me,

Together We can see the moon and the stars shining high up in the sky,

I want to tell you this,

I've already fall for you.

2009-10-15T18:05:00.001-07:00

Was a great workout yesterday.

Did jogging, weights (leg exercise) and agility.

Trying to come back.

And i saw you there too =)

2009-10-14T21:11:00.000-07:00

What is happening lately?

When i go, you're not there, but when i leave, you come.

Tell me what are you thinking. Let me read your mind.

2009-10-14T05:14:00.000-07:00

What a workout today. Most of them done with the leg exercises. Really good for getting back my fitness and improving my fitness. Working hard on it now.

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What a horrifying experience for me when i accidentally 'kissed' the bumper of the car in front of me on the highway. The guy came down scolding me "WTF" and he checked the bumper.

Fortunately there wasn't any dent or scratch. Phew....was so scary men...between the verge of life and death.

Building

2009-10-13T06:46:00.000-07:00

Resumed jogging 2 days back and also trying to get back the fitness i had previously and also to improve it.

Really love going to the gym now even with the wrist injury.

The least is at least i can see her.

Always keep the smile on your face =)

2009-10-11T01:58:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Mum !!!

Hope you will enjoy !!

=D

It's time to get up and start pushing myself again.

Competitors

2009-10-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

During this injury period, i could only see people play badminton. Couldn't do anything much either.

Seeing my competitors going the extra mile, i am still at the same level, or maybe falling.

The Ups and Downs. Haihz

Wasted

2009-10-07T08:25:00.001-07:00

There was such a huge opportunity for me to prove my potential.

The Taylors Sports Carnival for Badminton 2009 was held today. If my wrist wasn't injured, guess i would be representing my department, but sadly...things didn't wanted to go in the way i want.

Another opportuniy wasted.

Back at Zero

2009-10-03T19:49:00.000-07:00

Seems like my wrist isn't showing any much improvement, there's still pain even after game. Seems like i gotta need to rest again to let it recover completely.

Back at Zero...

Bad comeback

2009-10-03T02:14:00.000-07:00

Went for badminton game today. When i was there, i prepared and myself and got myself warmed up.

During the stroking session, all my shots were so wrong, all the shuttle only reach half court, the strokes aren't consistent and many shots hitting the frame. I expected that this scenario would happen on me.

During Doubles, i wasn't even able to smash properly or even drop. My shots were not good and i couldn't anticipate the shot. My smashes mainly went into the net, and out of 10 shots, only 2 shots managed to pass the net.

My footwork was still ok(thanks to physical work out during the normal days), but fear most is the wrist. My wrist just signalled me some pain. When i smashed, i can feel the pain within it.

After the game session, i sat on the bench and looked down at the floor. I kept thinking of my performance today and about my wrist.

Did i put up too high expectation on myself? or the pain of the wrist affected me? What was i thinking during the match?

Just a bad recovery and comeback. Please suggest some ways to resist the pain

2009-10-02T03:27:00.000-07:00

Been doing fine these few days, working back on my physical fitness.

The burning desire and eagerness of mine to get back to court drives me to work harder.

When i get back to court, it's time to prepare for upcoming tournaments end of the year !

Truth

2009-10-01T08:08:00.001-07:00

Did she found out the truth herself?

Confused.

Comeback

2009-09-28T04:11:00.000-07:00

Did some physical exercise today after resuming from wrist injury...

Felt unfit when doing footwork, and also when doing pushup, some pain in my wrist...

What a COMEBACK...

2009-09-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

Is it possible to change one's heart?