Saturday, May 30, 2009

Lighter

I felt lighter after putting down the high expectations i have on my own and the pressure, able to perform better...



I guess it's the mind who controls the performance overall...

Friday, May 29, 2009

Believe in Yourself

"All the support and hope you all gave to me, I will never forget"



"Through pain and failure I shall learn, to stand up again and play well"



"I will not disappoint all of you, I promise!"

Thursday, May 28, 2009

The days are normal recently, working all day long...



Anybody experienced being uncomfortable at unfamiliar places such as new areas that u haven't play before?



Will you be unable to perform in that place itself?

Friday, May 22, 2009

"Kamu tidak berfikir mana nak letak shot kamu...."



"Kamu perlu mengurangkan mistake kamu, banyak simple mistake..."



"Basic stroke kamu belum begitu baik, perlu drill banyak lagi..."



"Semasa ke court, nak start game, mesti ada semangat yang baik untuk mula..."



These words are said by Coach Doni, i know it hurts for sure, but this does not tell me that it is the end, i will not give up !



"Gerak Cepat, Fikir Cepat, Shot Cepat" , I will remember this !

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Rest in peace my friend

Rest in peace to my friend Bingo, though it's just a dog, but he already lived with us for 11 years and we considered him as part of our family member. Thank you for being with us, serving us and accompany us for so long until the end of journey of life.



I remembered Bingo first joined us in the year 1998, where i was just 8 years old. He was the cutest puppy among all the other dogs we saw, furry and very lazy =)



We brought Bingo home and played with it, taking care of Bingo and soon Bingo became familiar with us and became part of our family. Mum loved Bingo the most and she always hug Bingo, when Mum is down or lonely, Bingo will always be there, no matter how it is, and Bingo will endure of the pain regardless of how serious it would be without acknowledging us.



Bingo was not that close to me, as i did not give him much attention. Eventhough our relationship is not as close as his relationship with Mum, yet Bingo still do like me regardless of who i am. Dad always bring Bingo for a walk and Bingo was never a naughty dog. Loyal and obedient as always, Mum gave him the best that she can.



In Year 2008, a friend of my mum gave us another dog because her friend couldn't keep so many dogs at home. The new dog that joined us is Fei Fei, a pekingnese. Our attention were all diverted to Fei Fei and i remembered that moment where Bingo was left aside and being so cold there alone. There is always Jealousy war at home and also Cold War between Bingo and Fei Fei.


It's been almost 1 year but all in within a year, Bingo's health has drastically getting worse and severe. Bingo couldn't walk like he used to be, and his legs are as skinny as bone, his appetite has gone worse, could not control his own eating habit and also not able to stand as steadily as he used to be always. He tends to eat more vigorously and was afraid that Fei Fei may come to fight for his food. That moment, his health gotten worse until 1 day we realised that he didn't want to eat his food, nor even drinking water. He hid himself at the corner for 3 days without food and water.



Feeling strange, we all went to look at him. Bingo could not even bare to stand up and he just lied there and the pungent smell all over the area. He could not even stand up to go pee, which then we knew something was wrong already. Mum called up the doctor to seek for solutions regarding about Bingo's health condition. The Doctor said that nothing was able to be done and it's only waiting for it's time to go.



Bingo didn't want to leave us alone as he was afraid that we will be lonely without him, and he hang on himself and tried to stay up. Mum saw him suffering like this and she had heartaches over him. She told Bingo, "It's okay boy, we can take care of ourselves. You did your part" and Bingo was just lying there on the floor, breathing heavily and barely able to move his limbs. The only thing he was able to do is by drinking and licking the water we supplied to him.



The next morning, my parents went out to walk in the morning. Before she went out, she told Bingo that "it's okay to go, no worries anymore boy..." . I was still sleeping on my bed and assuming that it was still 7am where it actually is already 9am, silly me. I woke up and went downstairs to have my breakfast. I heard my mum was calling the veterinarians and acquiring details about injecting or putting the dog to sleep. I was sitting in front of the TV watching and enjoying my breakfast. I saw Bingo lying on the ground, but i assumed that it was still alive, until the maid shouted loudly "Bingo die already..."



The moment of silence arrived, and immediately Mum hung up the call and me rushing to find out the truth, and it really turned out to be true. Mum held herself silent for a moment, and she decided to bury Bingo in the garden, since he belonged to this family and this house, and we did the burial of Bingo the whole morning.



Here i am typing about this after burying Bingo, just couldn't hold my tears, 11 years of friendship....



May you rest in peace, Bingo







This is the only picture i have in my laptop, you will always be in my memories

Friday, May 15, 2009

I have bad feelings that i may fail Econs...



The fear crawl into my veins....



really makes me nerves....

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Economics

Just one more day left towards my final paper, Economics..



First time taking this subject, felt different from other subjects...



Facing this battle all alone, it's up to myself to face this battle alone....

Sunday, May 10, 2009

It's just refreshing after today's training, i can find confidence again =)



Took me some time at first, but after some time, i just feel the feeling is back....



Sometimes i think an injury really gives me time to reflect myself to be better....

Friday, May 8, 2009

Revive

It's time to revive!



I shall resume training tomorrow =)

Thursday, May 7, 2009

People have 2 faces....



I can't trust anyone else...

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

=(

Darn it, my parents don't allow me to go training tomorrow...



They tell me to go after exams?



I want to recover my form...Oh my GOD!!!!!

Monday, May 4, 2009

Have been starting to do some light workout for badminton...



Some shadows and some wall drills...



Will come back slowly...